youâre too honest to pretend that you donât. Thatâs what makes you so different from everyone else.
She shook her head and turned away from him. Yet in spite of the fresh batch of tears that were welling in her eyes, she couldnât help but feel a sense ofpeace. With Ed here, she knew sheâd have the strength to face whatever happened to Phoebe. She wouldnât have to hide anymore.
Off the Hook
âYO, MOON! TURN OFF YOUR GODDAMN ringer!â
Sam sat Perfectly still in the middle of his laundry-strewn floor, staring at the phone on his desk. Another shrill ring split the silence.
âMoon!â Fists pounded on the door. âAt least take the freaking thing off the hook, wonât you?â
Sam winced. Mike Suarez had never sounded so angry before. But then, Sam had never kept him up past four in the morning before, either. This was the seventh time the phone had rung since midnight ⦠and he doubted it would be the last. He hadnât answered any of the calls. He couldnât even bring himself to
move.
Thank God the door was closed. He could only guess what he looked like: wearing a pair of flimsy boxer shorts, hair in disarray, shivering but bathed in sweat. Like a lunatic. Somebody who should be removed from society and tossed in a padded room.
Actually, that didnât sound so bad. If he were institutionalized, then heâd never have to face Ella againâ
âUnplug that phone or Iâm gonna break down this door and unplug it for you!â Mike shouted.
Of course. Sam shook his head. He didnât have to torture himself or his suite mates. He could just unplug the phone. Why hadnât
he
thought of that?
Maybe because Iâm losing my mind.
With a grunt he forced himself up and ripped the cord out of the wall in midring.
âSorry,â he called.
Mike didnât answer. He simply stomped away.
Add one more person to the list of people who hate Sam Moon.
A bitter smile crossed his face as he sank down onto his unmade bed and ran a clammy hand through his hair. It was pitiful. Aside from a psychotic, thirty-year-old nymphomaniac who was destroying his life, who actually
liked
him? Not Mike, obviouslyâalthough heâd probably get over it. Samâs lab partners were getting fed up with him, too. Heâd been blowing them off since Christmas. And his girlfriend? They barely even spoke. If he didnât officially end things with Heather soon, it would probably be only a matter of time before
she
dumped
him.
That left Gaia.
Right. After tonight Gaia probably wouldnât want to have anything to do with him, either. Of course she wouldnât. Heâd left her in the parkâwhere sheâd beenattackedâthen dumped her unceremoniously on her front stoop after sheâd keeled over. A hell of a dinner, wasnât it?
His eyes flashed to the phone. Maybe he should just call her. Maybe
she
had been the one who was calling and calling all night. It was possible, wasnât it? Yeah, right. It was also possible that the queen of England was calling, too. He knew damn well who it had been. The psycho. The foster mom. He couldnât bring himself even to
think
her name. And if he called that house, chances were very good that
she
would answer the phone.
So. Once again he found himself back where he started. Ground zero. Having confessed nothing. In the same state of panic. At this rate he was going to have an ulcer before he turned twenty-one. For all he knew, Ella had already told Gaia everything. Maybe sheâd found Heather and told
her,
too. Anything could happen.
But that wasnât what terrified him the most.
No ⦠what terrified him the most was that a part of himâa subconscious part, buried deep within the darkest reaches of his psyheâmight want that to happen. A part of him might secretly long for Ella to tell Gaia the truth. Because in a way, that would let Sam off the hook. And wasnât