Free Necessary as Blood by Deborah Crombie Page A

and efficient and the queue moved quickly, just giving Gemma time to take in the no-nonsense interior, the huge steel ovens in the back, and the two Royalty Protection Command officers in full gear ahead of her. They were enormous, like nightclub bouncers on steroids. She‘d have expected some of the pierced and tattooed clubbers, or the obviously homeless man on the pavement, to give them a wide berth, but Beigel Bake‘s cheerful atmosphere seemed to erase boundaries.
    With a cup of stewed tea in one hand and a salt-beef bagel with mustard in the other, she came out again into the street, munching as she walked. She thought she had never tasted anything quite so good.
    The sandwich lasted her almost to Old Street Station, and as she neared the Tube, she tossed her empty polystyrene cup in a rubbish bin. She stopped for a moment to look at the Banksy painting high on the side of a commercial building on the far side of the Old Street roundabout. It was called ‘Ozone Angel‘, she knew, and was a tribute by the anonymous street artist to a friend who had been killed by a train. But she‘d never before quite realized how haunting the androgynous child was, with its angel wings and safety armour, and the death‘s head, a memento mori, held in its outstretched hand.
    She thought suddenly of Charlotte Malik, with both her parents missing, and shivered.

    Hazel sat curled in a corner of her rose-printed sofa, arms wrapped tight round her chest even though the bungalow windows were still open to the warm evening air. She hadn‘t bothered turning on the lights, or eating, although she knew she should do both.
    Her irritation with Gemma for having so patently wanted rid of her at Naz Malik‘s house had lasted her the first half of the way home. Her smouldering resentment towards Tim for having searched out an old friend because it was thought his wife might have betrayed him had fuelled the remainder of her drive.
    But by the time she‘d reached the bungalow — she still couldn‘t think of it as home, in spite of the enthusiasm she had manufactured for Gemma — even that had flickered out. Hazel was self-analytical enough by training and by nature to see her anger for what it was: a transference of her own guilt. How could she blame Tim for seeking out someone with whom he could sympathize?
    Now she felt shocked and more than a little sickened by her behaviour that afternoon. A family in the midst of trauma, a child in distress, and rather than doing what she could to help, as Gemma and Tim had done, she had sniped at both of them.
    What sort of person had she become? She seemed to have lost her compass and, with it, any confidence in her ability to make the right decisions. She‘d convinced herself that coming back to London was the best thing, convinced herself that she and Tim could work together to do what was best for Holly, but now she doubted her resolve.
    Hazel thought of the house in Islington, of Tim tucking in Holly and the little girl, Charlotte, as she used to tuck in Holly and Toby, and she trembled with longing. It was her place, and she had forfeited it. She could see no way back. Despair rose in her, black, bitter as bile.
    A woman‘s voice came clearly from beyond the wall of the darkened garden. The words were unfathomable, the intonation so familiar it struck to the bone. She was calling her child in for the night.

    He heard the sound of water falling. It came and went in rhythmic susurrations, like the curtains of rain that had swished across the rice fields of his childhood. His mind wove in and out of memory — smells of cooking combined with the warm, ripe scent of farmyards; the light, green-filtered, always; the air thick as syrup. Air so dense it pressed on his chest... He opened his mouth in a gasp, trying to expand his lungs, and the movement brought him close to consciousness once more.
    The faint recollection of pain made him keep his eyes shut tight, and he began to drift again.
    Then,