Free The Heavenly Man by Brother Yun, Paul Hattaway Page B

treating me like this?”
    Despite my anger, the Lord didn’t answer me.
    I could not return home because I would be arrested. I couldn’t help my brothers and sisters who were being tortured all across China. I felt so frustrated. I couldn’t go forward and I couldn’t go back.
    The Lord used these circumstances to show me that hewanted all of my heart to be totally committed to him. In my desperate condition a new song began to form in my mind:
    As long as I live, I will only love my Lord
    With all my heart, strength and mind, I will only love my Lord
    Regardless of what happens, I will only love my Lord
    In all my actions and words, I will only love my Lord.
    In times of humility and learning, I will only love my Lord
    In times of joy and gladness, I will only love my Lord
    Whether I face hunger or if I’m full, I will only love my Lord
    I am his in life or death, I will only love my Lord.
    The Lord has sacrificed his life for me
    My deep sin has been pardoned
    I have dedicated all my life to him
    I will only love my Lord.
    I shared what I had seen in my vision with Brother Zhang. I told him, “We must leave this place now. The Lord will protect us. He’ll be our shelter.” We continued our journey without even waiting for dawn to come.
    I had a deeper understanding that no matter what situation would come my way, I would be in the hands of the Lord, and he would rescue me. I started to march ahead again, according to God’s calling.
    I felt ashamed and guilty for how I’d complained to the Lord, but he was patient and loving to me, not treating me as I deserved, but gently helping me like an eagle tending her baby chicks.
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    DELING : In the early 1980s we enjoyed sweeter fellowship and closer unity than ever before. The pressure meant we had to rely on the Lord and on each other for our very survival. The love of the brethren brought great comfort to my heart. At this time we also witnessed the greatest number of miracles in our ministry for the Lord. Supernatural visitations, divine healings, and people being delivered of demons were common occurrences.
    Despite the hardships – or rather because of them – the church experienced rapid growth. Revival fires from the Lord ignited all across China.
    Some remarkable incidents took place that led multitudes of people to the salvation of the cross.
    In my village of Yenzhang a Communist Party secretary named Zhang had persecuted and tortured Christians for years. Like the Apostle Paul before he met Jesus, Zhang seemed to delight in destroying the church.
    One brisk winter evening my mother, Brother Fu, some co-workers, Yun and I went to Yenzhang village. We visited a Christian family and prayed for them. About thirty Christians gathered so we decided to have a meeting.
    A neighbour overheard our worship and made a report to the Party secretary, Mr. Zhang. He sent a team of Public Security Bureau officers to the house. They came with batons and ropes to arrest us and take us to the local police station.
    The Party secretary had a brother who lived in a nearby village. This man had a mental illness. At exactly the same time that the PSB were dispatched to break up our meeting, the devil put a murderous spirit into the mind and heart of the secretary’s brother. That insane man grabbed his 80-year-old mother and murdered her by cutting off her head with a rusty knife. He then threw her corpse into a latrine outside the house.
    Brother Fu was leading the singing when the officers ran into the courtyard of the house where we were meeting. The policekicked in the door and beat Brother Fu severely with their batons. For what seemed like an eternity they tortured the elderly man until he was almost dead. They then bound his unconscious body tightly with ropes. There was nothing we could do but pray for our beloved pastor.
    They threw Yun’s mother to the ground and viciously kicked her. As they were about to bind her with rope they noticed some young people in the