fingers. Juliannaâs soul had held no darkness. She had been clean and without sin, emanating a true white light. With his mindâs eyes, he saw her as he had that first time. Standing beside her mother, gaze cast downward, her long curls pulled away from her face with barrettes shaped like teddy bears, the same bears embroidered on the smocking of her jumper. Then she had lifted her gaze and smiled at him, purity and innocence radiating from her like the sun.
Her purity had called to him. Her innocence had fed his soul. Both had touched a place deep inside him, one that had all but shriveled and died. One that had stopped responding to all but the majesty of nature.
She had been an angel sent to earth and to him.
He had loved her, and only her, from that first moment.
He had tried to protect her from the corrosive influence of others, from the ugliness of a world gone mad, an ugliness that would spoil her as surely as the worm spoils the fruit.
So she would know what he never had, he had cherished her, had nurtured her bright inner flame.
Once upon a time, he, too, had had the special light. But his had not been nurtured. It had been smothered, the darkness cultivated. He hadnât wanted that for his Julianna.
But her mother had seen fit to darken that soul. She had seen fit to frighten Julianna away, to introduce her to things she had been unaware of. Rage burgeoned inside him, icy cold and awesome.
Her mother and Clark Russell. Destroyers.
John lifted the binoculars once more. He scanned the riverâs edge in both directions, then the rocks and forest above, making certain he and Clark were alone.
It wasnât too late for Julianna. He knew it wasnât. He had to find her.
But first, Clark Russell would pay for his crime.
John stood and started down to the river. He picked his way effortlessly and nearly soundlessly over the rocks and through the dense underbrush. His breathing elevated, but only slightly; the oxygen fed and readied him, as did the adrenaline coursing through his bloodstream.
Killing wasnât personal. It shouldnât be. Get in, do the job as quickly, as impersonally as possible, and slip away. That was the way he had been trained; his ability to do just that had made him one of the Agencyâs most efficient specialists; it had earned him the code name Ice.
But this was different. John narrowed his eyes, closing the distance between himself and the other man, hatred burning in the pit of his gut. Clark had crossed the line; he had made this personal. A gunshot to the back of the head wasnât good enough; neither was the garrote or the blade.
No, John wanted him to know what was happening, who was killing him. And why. He wanted to look into Clarkâs eyes as the life faded from them.
The rush of the water masked the last of his approach. John disabled Clark with a sharp, edge-of-the-hand chop to the back of his neck. A bird screamed overhead. The man dropped to his knees, then onto his side. John delivered another blow, this one with his heel to the solar plexus, followed by one to his kidneys. Sprawled flat on his back, Clark looked up at him, conscious but completely immobilized.
âHello, Clark.â John smiled at the fear that crept into the manâs eyes. The fear of death, the certainty of it. âYou crossed the line. You put your nose in my business. That made it personal. Now you have to pay.â
He brought his heel down again, but this time in a crushing blow to the manâs larynx, finishing the job. It took little more than a nudge with the toe of his boot to tumble Clarkâs remains into the water.
John watched the body bobble on the water as it was swept downriver.
Part V
The Open Door
7
J ulianna kept her promise to Dr. Samuel. In fact, she had thought of little else for the next twenty-four hours. The way she saw it, her choices were slim and few. According to the doctor, she had to have this baby. She thought of seeing