you be arrested for leaving the apartment?” she wanted to know.
“No. You’re not guilty of anything until the court says.”
“I was never in a courtroom,” she told me, as if she had been denied some pleasure that all girls our age had already enjoyed.
“Lucky you,” I said.
“Does Keefer know you’re going to see him?”
“Not exactly,” I said.
“I told Charlotte Lily about you. She was very interested.”
“Like I care,” I said.
“Bring me back a chocolate bar with nuts. My stepmother threw every piece of candy out of the house today.”
“Axel will like you more if you lose weight.”
“That’s not what he said. He said he likes a woman with something to grab on her.”
“Okay,” I said. “One chocolate bar with nuts.”
I was getting away cheaply, I thought, and after I put on the skirt I had bought with Cory’s money and found a blouse that came close to the one I had stolen, I went to the bathroom to fix my hair and put on some lipstick. Then I started to leave before Kathy Ann could change her mind. Fortunately, she was already hooked on a television program.
“Call me,” she said as I started toward the front door, “and let me know what’s happening.”
“Will do. Don’t forget. I’m in the bathroom, and if she calls again, say I’ve got the runs. She’ll believe that.”
“I bet you’ve been lying all your life, haven’t you?”
I thought a moment.
“No, my whole life’s been a lie,” I told her. She smiled in confusion.
“Huh?”
“Thanks, Kathy Ann. I owe you,” I said, and left quickly.
I had to wait longer for the bus and at one point wondered if I should try hitching a ride. Finally, it came. I went directly to the shop, but stopped dead in my tracks when I turned the corner and looked at the building. There were no lights on like there had been the night before. Disappointment settled over me like a leaden cape. I felt like crying. Then I remembered Keefer saying he had an apartment behind the shop.
I went around the building and saw a small window with a light on behind it. What if he was with someone? I thought. It would be very embarrassing for both of us. I should have called him first. Feeling timid now, I went to the window and peeked through the flimsy curtain. I saw it was as he had described: a single room with a pullout sofa, a small stove and sink on the right, and a television set across from the sofa. There was a table with two chairs as well. The walls were bare. The truth was, it looked more like some sort of a storage room that had been converted into a living space. The floor was bare, and the only light came from two lamps. How depressing, I thought.
“See anything you like?” I heard, and nearly jumped out of my skin.
I turned, holding my breath. There was Keefer, a bag of groceries in his arms. When he saw it was me, he broke into a big smile.
“Robin, what the hell are you doin‘?”
“I was just seeing if you were in, or if you had any company,” I explained.
He nodded.
“Company? Here? It’s just me, myself, and I,” he told me. “What are you doin‘ here?”
“I had to get away from my place,” I said. “I got into trouble today.”
“Oh? C’mon inside then and tell me about it. I love to hear about trouble.”
He opened the door, and I followed him into the one-room apartment. He had a very small refrigerator, actually more like a portable thing. He had to bend down to put his food in it. He took two quarts of beer out of bis bag and put one in the refrigerator.
“Beer?” he asked.
“Sure.”
Now that I was inside, I felt even more depressed. The walls seemed to close in, and I could hear what sounded like a leaking pipe in the wall.
“There’s a couple of rats livin‘ here, too,” he said, seeing how I was listening. “Friendly. I even put out some cheese for them.”
“Keefer!”
“I’m just kiddin‘. That’s the hot water heater. So, tell me about your trouble,” he said,