Free All Better Beautiful (Payton's Heart) by C.A Harms

great person that wants to know me, who wants to be with
me. A guy who knows my heart is somewhere else but still wants to show me what
it feels like to have someone care. I have always felt unlovable like I wasn't
worthy of love. There's this guy that wants to show me something different but
I find myself holding back because I know that I have already given my whole
heart away and no matter how hard I try I can't get it back, I not sure I want
it back." I was standing there in the kitchen with Karen crying talking to
her about Dylan and the hold he has on me. She brushed my hair from my face and
tucked it behind my ear, "Follow your heart Payton, I am sure not going to
stand here and tell you that I am not secretly pulling for Dylan to be the one.
I am not going to tell you that I buy for one second that he doesn't care about
you. But I am also not going to be the one to tell you that you shouldn't give
Todd a chance either. That is a decision only you can make honey. But in no way
should you let anyone influence your choice. Dylan is just like his father was…his
ego and pride get in the way of a lot of things. But once you break through
that wall, they love with their entire heart." I thanked her for talking
to me and for listenin ,g before I went off to bed.
     
    When I
walked into Casey's room I found her lying in bed crying. She tried to hide it
at first but then I made her talk to me "Payton I screwed up majorly I
don't know what I'm going do my mom is going to hate me." I just listened
after all she has been judge free and has always been there for me threw
everything I owed her that in return. She lowered her head and looked at the
bed and whispered. “I’m Pregnant," and then she lost it...she must have
cried for an hour straight and then she fell asleep with her head on my lap as
I lightly brushed her hair with my fingers. I moved her off my leg slowly and
covered her up the best I could. There really wasn't room for me to crawl into
bed with the position she was sleeping in so I grabbed a pillow and blanket
then went out to sleep on the couch.
     
    I woke up
to Carter practically sitting in my lap playing PlayStation. He looked back at
me when he felt me moving around, "Hey loser, what happened did you and
your girlfriend get into a fight?" Not sleeping very well and being a tad
bit cranky I slapped him on the back of his head pushing him off the couch as I
got up, “Shut up smartass." I went into Casey’s room and found she was
still sleeping when I walked past her dresser I noticed the wrapper in the
waste basket and the pregnancy test instructions were sticking out. I decided
that I had better get rid of the evidence at least until she was ready to tell
her mom. I grabbed the box and the wrappers tucking them under my sweatshirt. I
found a brown paper bag in the kitchen cabinet and stuffed the contents into
it. I turned to take it outside to the garbage and I was face to face with
Dylan, "What are you trying to hide?" He snatched the bag out of my
hands and looked into the bag. The look on his face at that moment was complete
heartbreak. Like someone had just told him that everyone in his life that he had
loved only had 24 hours to live. Complete devastation. "It’s not what you
think", grabbing it back I went out into the garage and he followed right
behind me. He grabbed me by the arm maybe a little too hard I yanked away from
him and lifted the lid to the big garbage can in the corner stuffing the paper
sack down as deep into the can as I could get it. I turned around to face him
still fairly moody from my lack of sleep and completely surprising him with my
actions, "Don’t you ever grab my arm like that again. It isn't what you
think and even if I was pregnant it would be none of your business you have
made it perfectly clear where you and I stand". As if missing everything I
said except for the pregnancy part he seemed a little relieved, "So it was
a false alarm then?" I was fuming now from his