let’s her go.
“Are you crazy?” She asks, getting down on her hands and knees to check on Nailer.
She probably has a valid point. I’ve been crazy for so long, I don’t know any other way. I need to make her understand. If Dragon, turns his anger on her like Michael did me…if she has to endure the things I did….I can’t let that happen to Nic. I just can’t let that happen to anyone else .
“Nic, I had to get you away from that club. You don’t know what they’re doing!” I say walking to her and trying to pull her away from Nailer. We need to get out of here.
“Have you lost your freaking mind?” She asks again. My panic is increasing, this is not working out like I had it planned in my head.
“Nic!”
“Dani! How the fuck do you know anything is going on? You spent what? A couple nights with this asshole and decide everything he’s telling you is the fucking truth?”
“He has pictures, Nic. You need to see what Dragon did to his own man! Here look at them! You can’t stay with him Nic, he’ll hurt you!”
I can’t keep the panic out of my voice. I’m saving Nic, right? I’m giving her a lifeline I never got. Why is it not working? She takes the camera out of my hands and starts looking at it. I step back. It’ll get better now. She’ll see him killing Ms. Martens…no that’s not right. She’ll see him killing one of his own and she’ll see that we have to get away. We need to make ourselves safe .
“Why do you have these pictures?” Nic asks, so calm. She gives me this look of disgust and my soul feels… wounded . Nic is my best friend. Her and Ray are my only friends in the world. How can she see those pictures, be calm and look at me like I’m the piece of shit? What am I missing? Is the whole world okay with men killing and hurting others? Why does it feel like Nicole is betraying… me ?
“Tiny is in charge of following Dragon and his crew when they’re in Skull’s city to make sure they don’t do shit like this! Nic, you can’t be so far gone over Dragon that you don’t see how wrong this is!”
“Get the fuck out of my house!” She yells, throwing the phone across the room.
“Not going to happen, bitch,” Tiny says smugly. When I see the look on his face, I feel my panic nearly drown me. No! This is not how it is supposed to go down.
“What do you want from me?” Nic growls at Tiny.
“To play with you, sweet cheeks. Maybe I’ll do you and your girl at the same time. Dani here likes to party. The more the merrier, right baby?”
I try to concentrate on what they are saying. I know it’s not good, but a panic attack has me in its sites. The room is starting to tilt and swirl and the noise around me is distorted. I can’t hear what they are saying, but the anger in Nic’s face is clear. I try to concentrate on it and use that to ground me and keep the fear at bay.
“…Now enough of this shit. Strip before I decide your fat ass is more trouble than it’s worth.”
“Tiny baby stop it, you’re going to scare Nic. Besides, I told you I don’t party with other women,” I argue, when I hear the shit he is spouting. I’m starting to think I underestimated Tiny, and how truly vile he is. I need to distract him so Nic can get out of here. I try to let her know that with my eyes. I never meant to put her in more danger. I just needed her to see what Dragon does. I want her safe, but right now the main threat to both of us is Tiny.
I count backwards from one hundred in my mind and promise to wash my mouth out with soap and shower a thousand times as I kiss, Tiny. I do the fake movements Michael always seemed to like. Pulling my leg up against his hip and unbuttoning his shirt.
80, 79, 78, 77…
Tiny pushes me away, but I see the sick look in his eyes. I’ll kill myself before he ever touches me. I never want another man near my body. The only time I ever think of sex is when I’m drunk and high on meds, we’ve seen how well that works out. I
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