Free Starborne by Robert Silverberg Page A

disturbance.
    Perhaps so. The year-captain isn ’ t as confident of that as she seems to be. But she probably has a better understanding of such things than he has. In any event, he is pleased to see her cheerful and serene again.
    What courage it must have taken for her to agree to go along on this voyage!
    He sometimes tries to put himself in her place. Consider your situ a tion carefully, he thinks, pretending tha t he is Noelle. You are twe n ty-six years old, female, sightless. You have never married or even e n tered into a basic relationship. Throughout your life your only real h u man contact has been with your twin sister, who is, like yourself, blind and single. He r mind is fully open to yours. Yours is to hers. You and she are two halves of one soul, inexplicably embedded in separate bo d ies. With her, only with her, do you feel complete. And now you are asked to take part in a voyage to the stars without her — a voya ge that is sure to cut you off from her forever, at least in a physical sense.
    You are told that if you leave Earth aboard the starship, there is no chance that you will ever see your sister again. Nor do you have any a s surance that your mind and hers will be able to maintain their rapport once you are aloft.
    You are also told that your presence is important to the success of the voyage, for without your participation it would take decades or even centuries for news of the starship to reach Earth, but if yo u are aboard — and if, if , contact with Yvonne can be maintained across inte r stellar distances, which is not something that you can know in a d vance — it will be possible for the voyagers to maintain instantaneous communication with Earth, no matter how far int o the galaxy they jou r ney.
    The others who undertake to sail the sea of stars aboard the Wotan will be making painful sacrifices too, you know. You understand that everyone on board the ship will be leaving loved ones behind: mothers and fathers, perhaps, o r brothers and sisters, certainly friends, lovers. There will be no one in the Wotan ’ s complement who does not have some Earthbound tie that will have to be severed forever. But your case is special, is it not, Noelle? To put it more precisely your case is unique. Your sister is your other self. You will be leaving part of yourself b e hind.
    What should you do, Noelle?
    Consider. Consider.
    You consider. And you agree to go, of course. You are needed: how can you refuse? As for your sister, you will naturally l ose the oppo r tunity to touch her, to hold her close, to derive direct comfort from the simple fact of her physical presence. You will be giving that up forever. But is that really so significant? They say you must understand that you will never “ see” her a gain, but that ’ s not true at all. Seeing is not the i s sue. You can “ see” Yvonne just as well, certainly, from a distance of a million light-years as you can from the next room. There can be no doubt of that. If contact can be maintained between them at two or three continents ’ distance — and it has — then it can be maintained from one end of the universe to another. You are certain of that. You have a de s perate need to be certain of that.
    You consult Yvonne. Yvonne tells you what you are hoping to hear.
    Go, lov e. This is something that has to be done. And everything will work out the right way.
    Yes. Yes. Everything will work out. They are agreed on that. And so Noelle, with scarcely a moment ’ s hesitation, tells them that she is wil l ing to undertake the voyage.
    T here was no way, really, that she could have known that it would work. The only thing that mattered to her, her relationship with her si s ter, would be at risk. How could she have taken the terrible gamble?
    But she had. And she had been right, until now. Un til now. And what is happening now? the year-captain wonders. Is the link really breaking? What will happen to Noelle, he asks himself, if she loses