Free Wanted by Kelly Elliott Page A

almost mad. What was wrong with me? God help me…..I tu rned my attention back to Cars.
    Before I knew it he was str ok ing my legs again and I feel in to a dream. I dr eamt I was walking along a riverbank . It was me walking but I was also standing in the back ground watching it all play out . All I could see was my back walking away from me. Then to my side a man came running up and picked me up in his arms and spun me around . He gave me the most loving kiss . He w hispered something in my ear and I threw my head back and laughed . He turned and I could now see the front of his body….it was Gunner. He had white linen pants on that were rolled up so the water did not touch them and a grey shirt. He lo ok ed like heaven. His smile was that cro o k ed smile that I instantly feel in love with and would do anything to see every day. Just then I turned along with Gunner to start walking back in the direction I was watching my dream …..something was different about me but I could not see what it was. I barel y could see my face or my body. Everything got b lurry. Gunner dropped my hand and started to walk away from me. Wait! Where was he going?! Why was he leaving? He looked so sad.
    I heard someone talking to me. It was my mother .. …. Wake up Ellie .. … .you will never be w anted like this Ellie darlin ’… .. . H e does not want you Ellie wake up… .. .Does not want you… … NO! That was not true. I saw the way Gunner lo ok ed at me in my dream… … he loved me…..he had to love me….
    Ellie sweetheart wakeup…….

 
    Chapter Eight
    Gunner …..
    I w ok e up with a startle. It to ok me a second to realize I was still on the sofa. Oh man….my neck was killing me! I must have fallen asleep watching the movie. The movie was over and it w as just replaying th e main menu over and over again.
    Gunner ?....... Gunner don’t go! …… N O! He does, you are wrong….. you are wrong! Gunnerrrrr !
    What the hell? ! I lo ok ed ov er and Ellie was dreaming , if you could call it that . She was calling out my name in her dream! Holy shit! She sounded scared to death. I jumped up careful not to knock her off the sofa. I pushed the coffee table a little out of the way and I knelt down next to her and started to str ok e her hair……
    “ Ellie Sweetheart wakeup, Ellie wake up , sweetheart please wake up .”
    FUCK! My heart was pounding a mile a minute. What the fuck was she dreaming about and where the fuck was I going?! I would never leave her….ever!
    “ Ellie Swe etheart wakeup.” Ellie ’s eyes open ed suddenly and she lo ok ed right at me. Next thing I knew she started to cry and sat up and threw herself into my arms. She was crying hysterically and I was really fucking freaked out. I was going to kick my ass if I hurt her in a dream. I couldn ’t possible fuck this up in god damn dream… …. could I?
    “OH MY GOD! Gunner……” Ellie cried out in-between sob s.
    “SHHH Ellie it’ s okay , everything is okay , I’m here sweetheart and I’ m not going anywhere. I promise.” Just then Ellie pulled back and lo ok ed at me. Her eyes were filled with tears and she lo ok ed so goddamned confused. She sho ok her head no for a second and just st ared at me.
    “No one will ever want me Gunner, or stay with me… .. .ever.” She whispered.
    What the hell? My go d, wha t did her mother do to her ?
    “ Ellie sweetheart that’ s just not true.”
    I pushed a lock of her hair behind her ear. My god she was even beautiful when she was crying. The o nly thing I wanted to do at that moment was take away her fear and do ubts. To show her how much she was wanted . I lo ok ed down to her soft tear soaked lips and licked my own lips . I started to lean in to kiss her and I heard the front door lock move. Ellie must have heard it also because she quickly pulled out of my embrace and sat back just s taring at me with this lost lo ok on her face.
    Jeff walk ed in and surveyed what he saw.
    “What’s going on?