Free Broken by Alina Man Page B

overwhelmed with emotions, the kind that pull you out of your body, spin you like a Mary-go-round, and leave you breathless and confused.  Part of me wants to stay and get comfortable next to this amazing man.  But there’s also that part that tells me to run the hell out of his life before all my skeletons come running and ruin him the way they ruined me.  Lily is talking to the colorful monsters on TV, carefree and happy.  David is still watching me quietly, waiting for my next move. 
    “I better go,” I say at last.  “It’s been, hmm, interesting.”
    “Stay.”
    “I can’t.”
    “Why?  We don’t bite, I promise.  Unless you want me to.  Ok, that came out cheesy didn’t it?” he laughs nervously.
    “No it’s not that, I just have some stuff to do.  So, yeah.”
    “Hmm, ok.  I’m glad you came, and I hope we can do it again sometime.”
    “Do it?” Hey, no one said I couldn’t flirt with the guy. It comes naturally whenever I’m in his presence. 
    “The breakfast.  Or whatever else you had in mind.  I’m pretty flexible.”  We both laugh at the little innuendos.  “Come on, I’ll walk you out.”  I say goodbye to Lily, surprised at the big hug she gives me.   Kids are so innocent and ready to love you without asking for anything in return.  I envy that.  I’ve always wondered why we can’t all feel that way. David takes my hand and we walk the small distance from the living room to the entry door in silence.  “I really enjoy spending time with you.”  His voice is like music to my ears.  He could probably read me the phone book and it would sound beautiful.  
    “I did, too. Do, too. Look, I know you probably think I’m strange.  The truth is, I am strange. This, today, is been the most socializing I’ve done in years.  So thank you.”  Instead of saying anything, his hands frame my face, pulling me slowly, closer and closer to his lips.  I don’t dare to move, or breathe, as his fingers touch the back of my neck. The kiss is gentle, patient; he’s savoring me, nibbling on my lips, tasting.  When we finally move apart, my whole body is shaking with desire. 
    “WOW. I better go.”  He smiles and gives me one last kiss before he moves his hands away.  My hands are still trembling as I unlock the front door.  
    “Let me take you out for dinner.” His words are rushed and I’m wondering if I heard him right. 
    “What?”
    “Go out with me, Jenny.  Like on a date.”
    “A date?  Yeah, that’s not very likely. David, look, you are really nice but dating is really not for me.  I’m sorry.”  I turn again ready to leave, but once again his voice stops me.
    “Just one date.  Please say you’ll think about it.”  He’s pleading voice has the power to cut through all the chains around my heart.  How do I say no?
    “Ok,” I whisper.  “I’ll think about it.” 

Chapter 10
     
    Holy cannoli, what did I get myself into? I can’t remember the last time anyone had that kind of effect on me, on my body.  It was electrifying, amazingly erotic, waking every fiber in my entire being.  And I didn’t want him to stop; I wanted him to take me right there in front of the door, to ravish me until I no longer remembered my own name. 
    I wash my flushed face with cold water but the warm feeling is still there. I’m trying to stay strong but my own body is betraying me.  I know I need to find something to occupy my time, otherwise I’ll end up knocking on his door again.  I walk into my office and turn on the laptop, pretending that I have some sort of plan already in mind.  When did I stop writing? Better yet, why did I stop? I stare at the blank screen and nothing comes to mind.  Nothing that I can put in writing.  My every thought goes to David.
    Damn him and his ability to make me come undone with one simple touch.  I still feel his tender fingers, imprints like invisible tattoos, forever part of me.  After a while, it’s obvious