against his chest. Her grief was so big that it, too, was voiceless. Her body shook and her tears fell on him like rain. Jack wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close.
He was so cold that her heat was the only warmth in his world.
Behind them there was a heavy thud on the door.
Soft and lazy, but heavy, like the fist of a sleepy drunk.
However, Jack knew that it was no drunk. He knew exactly who and what was pounding on the door. A few moments later there were other thuds. On the side windows and the back door. On the walls. At first just a few fists, then more.
Jill raised her head and looked up at him.
âIâm cold,â she said, even though she was hot. Jack nodded; he understood fevers. Her eyes were like red coals.
âIâll keep you warm,â he said, huddling closer to her.
âW-whatâs happening?â she asked. âMom . . . ?â
He didnât answer. He rested the back of his head against the door, feeling the shocks and vibrations of each soft thud shudder through him. The cold was everywhere now. He could not feel his legs or his hands. He shivered as badly as she did, and all around them the storm raged and the dead beat on the house. He listened to his own heartbeat. It fluttered and twitched. Beneath his skin and in his veins and in his bones, the cancer screamed as it devoured the last of his heat.
He looked down at Jill. The bite on her arm was almost colorless, but radiating out from it were black lines that ran like tattoos of vines up her arm. More of the black lines were etched on her throat and along the sides of her face. Black goo oozed from two or three smaller bites that Jack hadnât seen before. Were they from what had happened at the school, or from just now? No way to tell. The rain had washed away all the red, leaving wounds that opened obscenely and in which white grubs wriggled in the black wetness.
Her heart beat like the wings of a hummingbird. Too fast, too light.
Outside, Mom and the others moaned for them.
âJack,â Jill said, and her voice was even smaller, farther away.
âYeah?â
âRemember when you were in the hospital in January?â
âYeah.â
âYou . . . you told me about your dream?â She still spoke in the dazed voice of a dreamer.
âWhich dream?â he asked, though he thought he already knew.
âThe one about . . . the big wave. The black wave.â
âThe black nothing,â he corrected. âYeah, I remember.â
She sniffed, but it didnât stop the tears from falling. âIs . . . is that what this is?â
Jack kissed her cheek. As they sat there, her skin had begun to change, the intense heat gradually giving way to a clammy coldness. Outside, the pounding, the moans, the rain, the wind, the thunderâit was all continuous.
âYeah,â he said quietly, âI think so.â
They listened to the noise, and Jack felt himself getting smaller inside his own body.
âWill it hurt?â she asked.
Jack had to think about that. He didnât want to lie, but he wasnât sure of the truth.
The roar of noise was fading. Not getting smaller, but each separate sound was being consumed by a wordless moan that was greater than the sum of its parts.
âNo,â he said, âit wonât hurt.â
Jillâs eyes drifted shut, and there was just the faintest trace of a smile on her lips. There was no reason for it to be there, but it was there.
He held her until all the warmth was gone from her. He listened for the hummingbird flutter of her heart and heard nothing.
He touched his face. His tears had stopped with her heart. Thatâs okay, he thought. Thatâs how it should be.
Then Jack laid Jill down on the floor and stood up.
The moan of the darkness outside was so big now. Massive. Huge.
He bent close and peered out through the peephole.
The pounding on the door stopped. Mom
Marc Nager, Clint Nelsen, Franck Nouyrigat