of a
gang member named Big Monk, that her
life story would be a tragedy.
Fuck that! I don't deserve this! I don't deserve to die like this! She tried to
struggle free of her bonds but the straps did not yield. Her eyes shot daggers at her captor as he wiped her blood from
his lips. He turned away from her
enraged stare with a look of shame and
stood up from the bed.
"Fuck you! You should be ashamed.
Now let me go! Let me go!" she
screamed at his back, but once again
the bal gag smothered her words.
She watched as Joe staggered out of
the bedroom, and she was afraid that he would leave her there alone. As much as she feared the things he might do to her, being left chained up in this dark
apartment terrified her even more. She
tried to scream for him to come back but her strained cries just barely squeaked out around the rubber bal shoved firmly between her teeth.
Chapter Ten
Joe walked out of the bedroom in a
daze. He plopped down on the couch
and stared at the ancient black-andwhite television as if awaiting revelation, but he'd received his revelation back
there in the bedroom. The disease was
progressing. He'd now mutilated a
woman. More than that, he'd eaten some
of her flesh and ejaculated while doing it. He had crossed the line. A deep
depression settled over him as he
considered himself, who he was, and
who and what he was becoming. The
possibility of kil ing was now more than just a sweaty fantasy haunting his wet
dreams. It was very real and very
imminent. He had to figure out what to
do with her now.
There was no way Joe could release her
after mutilating her breasts; not without going to jail. He would face charges of kidnapping, rape, assault, and of course cannibalism. He'd spend a minimum of
twenty years behind bars unless he got
an early parole for good behavior or
pleaded insanity. He considered
checking himself in to an insane asylum. He could go right to the hospital and tel them about the girl chained up in the
apartment, about how he'd chewed off
her nipples and would probably eat the
rest of her if nobody stopped him. He'd tel them about how he couldn't look at anyone without wondering how their flesh would taste, which appendages would
be the most tender, which organs would
melt on his tongue like an extravagant
confection.
Perhaps they would give him a nice
padded cel , drug him, and give him
group therapy sessions with other
cannibals and murderers. Maybe they
would give him private sessions with a
psychiatrist who would listen to tales
about his childhood. About how he'd
creep down the hal at night to watch his mother and father fuck through the
keyhole in the door. How his father would strangle her until her face turned blue just before he came, growling like a wolf.
How he'd once seen his father cut a
stray dog to pieces or how he'd been
kidnapped and molested by a young
child kil er when he was eight. Maybe
they would cure him. Maybe they would
give him shock treatments or chemical
castration or a lobotomy. Maybe they
would declare him legal y sane and he
would go to prison after al and get
raped or murdered himself by some big
angry convicts.
Joe shuddered. He did not want to risk
turning himself in. He did not relish the prospect of ending his days wrapped in
a straitjacket and locked in a padded
room, drooling on himself in a near
catatonic stupor from a cocktail of
antipsychotics. Besides that, he didn't want to release Alicia. He wanted to
taste more of her succulent flesh.
Joe curled up on the couch and tried to ignore the whimpering cries coming
from the next room. He didn't know what he would do with her, but whatever it
was, it wouldn't be tonight. It was already nearly sunrise and he had a class at
10:00 A.M. That left him barely four hours of sleep. He didn't want to be late for class. Joe was convinced that
somewhere there was a cure for his
il ness and that with the help of the
professor he would find it. First