Free No Longer Forbidden? by Dani Collins Page A

could put herself under his nose with only minimal risk and wait for him to notice her.
    The gray void that was her future grew bigger and more desolate.
    “As if what?” he prompted.
    She gave a dry laugh, using it to cover the damp thickness gathering in her throat. “I naively thought an affair could make for awkward Christmas dinners in future, but that won’t be a problem, will it? I really am saying goodbye to everything I knew and—”
    Don’t say it . Rowan swallowed and twisted her hands together, trying to rub sensation into fingers that were going numb. “I wish you had some feeling of having a home and family here, Nic. I really do. I’ll make us some sandwiches.”
    She picked up the candle and walked out, leaving him in the glow of the laptop. She didn’t see how he stood in the same place long after the device timed out again, silent and alone in the dark.

CHAPTER FIVE
    N IC was still letting Rowan’s remark eat at him the next morning, and he couldn’t fathom why. It wasn’t as if he hadn’t heard variations of it from other women.
    He had concluded over the years that there was a deficiency in him that portrayed him as not needing what others did: a home, family, love. And since he had been denied those things all his life he had learned to live without them. He didn’t need them. It was a closed loop.
    So why did he feel so unfairly judged by Rowan’s, I wish you had some feeling of having a home and family here ? Even if he wanted to be different, he couldn’t. The thought of trying to change made his hands curl into fists and a current of nervousness pulse through his system.
    “I’m going for groceries!” she shouted from the bottom floor, startling him from his introspection.
    Good , he thought, needing a reprieve from the way she upset his equilibrium. “Check the car insurance,” he responded in a yell.
    “Okay. Bye!”
    He let out a sigh, forcing himself back to his desk and the work spread over it, dimly aware of the distant hum of the garage door and then the growl of a motor—
    She wouldn’t .
    Leaping to his feet, he shot open the window in timeto see his vintage black convertible, top down, slithering with the speed of a hungry mamba up the curving drive. Tucking fingertip and thumb against his teeth, he pierced the air with a furious whistle.
    The brake lights came on. Her glossy head turned to look back at the house.
    Nic pointed at the front steps and met her there a few seconds later. Rowan chirped the brakes as she stopped before him, staying behind the wheel while all eight cylinders purred. Glamorous Tiffany sunglasses obscured half her face, but her mouth trembled in a subtle betrayal of nervousness before she sat a little straighter and gave him a lady-of-the-manor, “Yes?”
    “What the hell are you doing?” He hitched his elbow on the top of the windscreen from the passenger side.
    “You said to check the insurance. This one is still valid.”
    “So is the hatchback.”
    “This is more fun.” She pulled out one of her cheeky grins, trying to cajole him into indulging her.
    He narrowed his eyes, determined not to fall for her act the way the rest of his sex did. “And you know that how?”
    Her nose crinkled. “I might have taken Black Betty here for a spin once or twice before. But I always fill the tank.” The assertive finger she lifted fell. “Today that could be a problem, though. I took the petty cash from the kitchen, but it wasn’t much.”
    “You are utterly shameless, aren’t you? I’m speechless.” Unaccountably, he had to suppress an urge to laugh.
    “Okay. Well, could you … um … step back while you ponder what you’d like to say?”
    “Get out of my car, Rowan!”
    “Oh, Nic, don’t be like that,” she coaxed, leaning toward him so the chunky zipper of her flight jacket gaped open and showed him the line of her dark plum scooped-shirtplastered low across her breasts. Pale globes swelled over the top.
    “Like what?” He