students.â
âEspecially toward your daughter?â she asked.
He nodded. âI see you understand.â
âI wonât treat her unfairly, but I wonât play favorites, either,â she said icily. âSheâs going to receive no grades that she doesnât earn in my classroom. If you want to get me fired, go ahead.â
âOh, hell, I donât want your job,â he said abruptly. âIt doesnât matter to me if you stay here with your father. I donât even care why you suddenly came back. But I wonât have my daughter persecuted for something that she didnât do! She has nothing to do with the past.â
âNothing?â Her eyes glittered up into his. âSally was pregnant with that child when you married her, and she was born seven months later,â she said huskily, and the pain was a living, breathing thing. Even the threat of leukemia wasnât that bad. âYou were sleeping with Sally while you were swearing eternal devotion to me!â
Antonia didnât have to be a math major to arrive at the difference. Heâd married Sally less than a month after he broke up with Antonia, and Maggie was born seven months later. Which meant that Sally was pregnant when they married.
He took a slow, steady breath, but his eyes, his face, were terrible to see. He stared down at her as if heâd like to throw something.
Antonia averted her gaze to the desk, where her hands were so tightly clasped now that the knuckles were white. She relaxed them, so that he wouldnât notice how tense she was.
âI shouldnât have said that,â she said after a minute. âI had no right. Your marriage was your own business, and so is your daughter. I wonât be unkind to her. But I will expect her to do the same work Iassign to the other students, and if she doesnât, sheâll be graded accordingly.â
He stood up and shoved his hands into his pockets. The eyes that met hers were unreadable. âMaggieâs paid a higher price than you know already,â he said enigmatically. âI wonât let you hurt her.â
âIâm not in the habit of taking out my personal feelings on children, whatever you think of me.â
âYouâre twenty-seven now,â he said, surprising her. âYet youâre still unmarried. You have no children of your own.â
She smiled evenly. âYes. I had a lucky escape.â
âAnd no inclination to find someone else? Make a life for yourself?â
âI have a life,â she said, and the fear came up into her mouth as she realized that she might not have it for much longer.
âDo you?â he asked. âYour father will die one day. Then youâll be alone.â
Her eyes, full of fear, fell to the desk again. âIâve been alone for a long time,â she said quietly. âItâs somethingâ¦one learns to live with.â
He didnât speak. After a minute, she heard his voice, as if from a distance. âWhy did you come back?â
âFor my father.â
âHeâs getting better day by day. He didnât need you.â
She looked up, searching his face, seeing the young man sheâd loved in his dark eyes, his sensuousmouth. âMaybe I needed someone,â she said. She winced and dropped her eyes.
He laughed. It had an odd sound. âJust donât turn your attention toward me, Antonia. You may need someone. I donât. Least of all you.â
Before she could say a word, heâd gone out the door, as quietly as heâd come in.
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Maggie was waiting at the door when he walked in. Heâd taken her home before he had his talk with Antonia.
âDid you see her? Did you tell her off?â she asked excitedly. âI knew youâd show her whoâs boss!â
His eyes narrowed. She hadnât shown that much enthusiasm for anything in years. âWhat about that homework?â
She