youâre out in the streets an awful lot. Itâs time to get serious Eric, Iâm not playing anymore.â I wouldnât admit it then, but she was right. De was pushing me towards greatness but I was scared to make a whole hearted attempt to reach it. I was purposely sabotaging my chances of succeeding and the momentum I had gained was quickly fading.
CHAPTER
9
Enough is Enough
You will not experience all life has to offer you or begin to experience life at its fullest as long as you are satisfied with mediocrity. You have to be disgusted with your current circumstances before your circumstances can change
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You have to be smart enough to know when life presents you with a golden opportunity and you have to be courageous enough to take advantage of it. My relationship with De was that golden opportunity, but the pressure was mounting. My mother used to say there are two types of pressure- good and bad. Mom used to put it like this, âPressure busts pipes, but it can also make a diamond. Youâre a diamond.â Before De and I hooked up, the only pressure I experienced was the pressure to smoke weed, join a gang, sell drugs, and to lose my virginity to an absolute stranger.
âEric, we need to talk,â De said in her I mean business voice.
âAll right, but let me kiss that neck first. I havenât seen my Boo in days,â I said, going in for the kiss.
âStop playing, you play too much, you canât be serious about anything can you?â she scolded.
âWell, let me hold your hand at least.â I knew she was serious because her top lip curled up. I grabbed her hand and sat her down on the top stair of the porch. âHolla at me Boo; you have my undivided attention.â
âDo you love me, Eric?â she asked.
âWhat? Do I love you?â I asked, a little hurt. âWhat kind of question is that?â
âDo you?â, she asked again with this weird look on her face.
âYes, I love you.â
âWell, I met with my school counselor today and she told me that I have enough credits to graduate on time.â
âWow, Boo, I am proud of you.â (The fact that I had recently dropped out made her graduation even sweeter). âFor real Boo I am proud of you.â
âAre you really?â she said in a way that sounded like a question but it really wasnât..
âWhatâs that all about?â I asked, a little confused.
âItâs about our future. I am going to college, Eric I am not going to stay in State; I am going down south and I want you to come with me.
You want me to come?â âYou and I both know thatâs not possible!â
âIt is possible; all you have to do is go get your G.E.D. You think I donât know Pastor Willis told you if you get your G.E.D. he would talk to one of his friends in the admissions department and see if he could get you in?â Immediately, my neck started to twitchâit was a natural reaction every time I got nervous. âI donât know De. I donât know.â
âI thought you said you loved me? Do you or donât you?â she tested.
âWhat does me loving you have to do with you going to college? Hell, this is the first time you even mentioned the fact that you were going to college. What am I supposed to do? Just because you are going to college I am supposed to pack up my life here and follow you down south?â âEric, what life? You didnât finish school, you donât have a real job; what life are you referring toâI thought I was your life? Let me put it like this, I am leaving for college in August, and I donât plan on having a long distance relationship. So either we go together and continue our relationship or else.â
Principle 11:
Just Do It.
If you keep doing what youâve always done, youâll keep getting what you always gotten. There will never be a perfect time or perfect situation in our life
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