Iâm not a pervert.â
Harryâs voice was cynical. âThatâs what we all say, isnât it?â
Dizzy and ill as he was, Cornell felt resentment.
âSpeak for yourself.â
Harry said quietly, but intensely: âIâm up for the Big One.â
Cornell shifted his supporting elbows and squinted to clear his eyes of pain. Harry was a small man, with delicate features. His complexion was pallid in the jailhouse light. Of course no makeup would be permitted here.
âBig one?â Cornell asked, wincing.
âDo you know anything bigger?â said Harry. âI raped a woman.â
Cornell fell onto his back.
âBut,â Harry said, âIâm not going to give you any nonsense about being innocent. I did it all right, and I enjoyed every moment of it, and I would do it again.â
Cornell listened to Harryâs ugly laugh.
âYou little pipsqueak,â Harry said nastily. âBig radical you are, with your womenâs gear! Listen, this is not the first time I did it, either. Itâs the only time I was caught.â
Cornell looked at the recessed light in the ceiling and weakly waved his hand.
âPlease,â he said. âDonât consider me as a competitor. Iâm here as the result of a stupid mistake. Iâm not a habitual criminal or a conspirator, radical, or any of those things. Iâm a secretary for a publishing firm, and I got into this horrible mess by accident, and I feel like killing myself.â
But Harry went smugly on. âItâs the knife for me. Well, I can take it. Iâll end up as a eunuch, but at least I know what it is to live like a man for a few years.â
He was some sort of maniac. Cornell wanted to get him off the subject. He was frightened to be confined with such a person.
âIf I got that shot you speak of,â he said, âI betrayed my best friend.â
This distracted Harry. He jeered. âAnother flaming revolutionary, I bet. Parading around with his cane and spats and brier pipe.â
âMore or less,â said Cornell in relief. âHeâs no more a menace to society than I am. He does that in his own home. Heâs not hurting anybody.â He realized he was quoting poor Charlie. âI understand that what I did canât be tolerated, of course. I was picked up on a public sidewalk.â
âYouâre talking to Harry the Rapist,â Harry said cynically. âDonât come on with that holier-than-thou stuff.â He lowered his voice but was even more brutal. âYouâve had your fantasies of fucking a girl.â
Cornell recoiled. Talk all you wanted about how every man had a little perversion in his heart, it was appalling to meet a genuine practitioner.
âThat is, of course,â Harry added, his voice growing sinister, âunless youâre a dirty little faggot.â He rose and took a step towards Cornellâs bunk.
Cornell sat up and balled his fists.
âDonât try it.â
Harry grinned sardonically. âPretty aggressive for a so-called normal boy, arenât you?â
âIâll defend myself,â said Cornell.
Harryâs grin changed to something less nasty. âYou look like Gina Antonelli,â he said, referring to the current boxing champion, whose name even Cornell recognized.
Cornell shamefacedly lowered his hands, remembering he had actually struck Charlie earlier that eveningâif it was still evening. He began to suspect that Harry was only baiting him.
Harry now smiled and extended his small hand.
âI had to check you out,â he said. âWe guys have got to stick together.â He pumped Cornellâs forearm. âIâm not bisex. I go for girls only. I canât control myself when I see a pair of trousers.â
He sat down on the cot, seemingly losing his earlier bravado. âI know they call it a crime, a sickness, but Iâve been that way all my