Free Kind of Blue by Miles Corwin Page A

get a good job, and that’s why I should try in school, or I’ll end up like you, but I told her I want to end up like you, and I want to be a policeman when I grow up, just like you, so I can carry a gun and shoot bad people, and she got mad, and she told me I should be a lawyer like my father or a psychologist like her, and I told her I wanted to be a policeman, and she told me to be quiet and go watch
Rugrats
.”
    “You should listen to your mother.”
    “Why’s my father in the hospital?”
    “Well, um,” I sputtered. “I know he’s sick, but I don’t know much about it. You better ask your mother to explain.”
    When I pulled off the freeway I headed away from the harbor, up a steep hill, and stopped in front of Relovich’s house. I climbed out of the car and unbuckled the booster seat.
    “Hey, I thought we were going for a boat ride,” Ariel said.
    “In a few minutes. I wanted to check on something.”
    “Why does that house have yellow tape around it?” Ariel asked. “It looks like the ribbon around a present.”
    I put an index finger to my lips and whispered, “Shh. Follow me and be real quiet.” We walked around to the back of the house and waded through a hedge to a window that had a jagged hole in the center.
    “Who broke the window?”
    “A man lived here and he forgot his key so he had to smash the window to get into his house. But I’ve been thinking about this window the past two days and something bothers me.”
    Ariel nodded, wide-eyed and serious, flattered that I was talking to him like a grown-up.
    I pointed to the shards on the sill and then the tiny specks of glass that speckled the dirt at the base of the hedge.
    “You know that book I bought for you, where you look at a drawing and there are ten things wrong with the picture and you have to pick all of them out?”
    Ariel nodded.
    “Well there’s something wrong with this picture.” I pointed to the window. “Say the man smashed the glass, opened the window, and then crawled inside. Where would all the glass be?”
    Ariel squinted, concentrating hard, and said, “Inside the house.”
    “Right.” I crouched and pointed to the dirt. “If he crawled inside the house right after he smashed the window, why are there tiny pieces of glass here and not any inside the house?”
    Ariel tugged on my pants. “I’m bored. Can we go now and see the ships.”
    Ariel hugged the railing during the harbor cruise and marveled at the big fishing vessels at dock, their spotting towers silhouetted against ascoured blue sky; the huge white cruise ships pulling into port for the afternoon; the cargo vessels lined up under the soaring cranes that cast enormous shadows on the splintery docks. The boat steamed around Terminal Island, through oil slicks, reflecting rainbow prisms in the sunshine, past the federal prison encircled with double chain-link fences and topped with razor wire. A few of the prisoners, lined up for yard time, waved at the boat passengers.
    “Did you arrest any of them?” Ariel asked, excited about seeing his first criminals.
    “Naw,” I said. “This is a federal prison. I only send people to state prisons.”
    “What’s the difference?”
    Ignoring him, I pulled a sweatshirt over his head as the wind picked up. Watching him grip the railing, smiling, enjoying the boat ride, I felt a sudden, piercing tenderness toward him. I picked Ariel up and hugged him.
    I thought of my father, living with his parents and younger brother—who was about Ariel’s age—in a small German town on the North Sea. In 1941 they were sent by cattle car to the ghetto in Lodz, Poland, then on to Treblinka. They waited patiently at the station, under the impression that they had arrived at a labor camp. The Nazis sent most of the Jews—including the children and the elderly—to one line. A few dozen of the young men, who looked like they’d be good workers, waited in the other line. My father was sent with the young men. He watched his