but a captive boy was enough motivation to try anything. Yet, an hour of meditation had done nothing except make her crave a nap.
“Do you know why we have most of our visions while we ’re sleep ing?” Declan asked her softly . The more on edge she got, the gentler tone he use d .
“Not a c lue,” she responded honestly.
Declan made her feel like a b ad student for being ignorant over their gifts. She blamed it on keeping her powers a secret for so long, but in all honesty she should’ve tried to learn more since the two years she found Matt Spencer. Her focus had been more on repressi ng her gifts during that period . Her time would’ve been better spent trying to hone her powers.
Declan launched into his explanation , “Although we’re sleeping, our brain is still very active, especially when we enter the REM phase. I’ve read studies and they say that this period is almost like a heightened level of consciousness and the time when you’re likely to have the most vivid dreams. This is the time when we’re most likely to have a vision —especially since our minds have shut out anything else that may be going on.
“ Basically what you’re doing now is trying to shut everything else out. Keep your mind and body relaxed and simply breathe in and out. Don’t focus fully on Max or his kidnapper. Instead, concentrate on becoming an empty vessel and getting into a higher state of consciousness.”
Kate decided to give it her best. Declan was very patient with her, even as her cynical si de threatened to te ll him there was no way this would actually help her get m ore control over her visions. Declan obviously had a couple of extra years of experience over her, so why shouldn’t she trust he knew what he was talking about?
Letting her mind go quiet took longer than she expected. She kept hearing the noises from outdoor s , Declan’s steady breathing next to her and her own heartbeat as she thought about Max alone with that crazy woman. To get rid of her thoughts, she tried to imagine them as bubbles floating away from her. She closed her ey es and just focused on taking long and cleansing breaths. In and out, in and out…
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“No, you’re lying! He can’t be gone!”
She beat her fist against the chest of her ex-husband. She hated him at that minute more than it was possible to d espise anyone else in this entire universe . He was the one to utter the words that would destroy her world and her already fragile hold on her sanity. They stood in the corridor of the hospital and she could care less about the uncomfortable stares being shot their way.
“Ally, I ’ m so sorry. It was an accident, a horrible accident…” Lincoln moaned to her. He did not bother to conceal his pain. His blue eyes filled with unshed tears and his mouth twisted into an expression of extreme sorrow. Ally had no sympathy for him and only wished his suffering could be increased a thousand-fold. If a butcher knife had suddenly appeared in front of her, she would have no problem grabbing it and shoving it into his gut. The dream of watching him bleed out like a stuck pig would probably be the only thing that could ever bring her any sort of happiness for the rest of her lifetime.
“This is your fault! He doesn’t know how to swim! Who brings a child to a party with a pool and doesn’t watch him? You’ll burn in hell for this, Lincoln ,” she spat at him. Lincoln turned his back on her and started to march away from her. “Don’t you dare walk away from me, you son-of-a-bitch!”
A nurse hurried over to her and attempted to diffuse the situation. The petite redhead rested her hand gently on Ally’s arm and spoke in a soothing voice. “M s. Seldon, let me take you somewhere. We can go to a private room and have a doctor give you something to calm down.”
Ally was having none of it. She welcomed the pain , relished it. A sedative would only make her numb to her hatred and need for retribution. The thought of
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