this morning. Mum said sheâd be home for that.â
âWell, sweetheart, sheâs not going to be able to make it. Kylie and her mum are going to go with you instead.â
Lily scowled. âBut she promised.â I waited for her to make a thing about it, but instead she said: âWhy canât you or Paul take me?â
Outside I heard Paulâs voiceââYep, yep. Thatâs fine. Weâll be here. Thank you.â
âLily says can we make swimming at eleven?â I said as he came back in.
He clicked back the receiver. âSorry, squirt. Estella and I have got work to do. But I think we could probably manage McDonaldâs afterward.â
She shook her head. âIâm fed up with Chicken McNuggets.â I raised an eyebrow. âYouâre lucky, Estella,â she said. âIn your country the cows havenât gone mad.â
They arrived ten minutes after the swimming party left. It was so warm we sat out in the garden around the slatted wood table, self-assembly Ikea, circa 1995. I remembered it well. I had got a blood blister from jamming my thumb in between the slats. Lily had put on her doctorâs uniform to deal with it.
Their very presence made her absence more sinister, and I found myself feeling sick again, the kind of nausea you sometimes get in important meetings when you have to talk for too long. Paul was more settled, but then he is better at playacting than I am. What would they think of us; father and friend? And would what they thought mean anything?
I have to say they were good at it, thorough and sensitive, trained to deal with jagged nerves. Name, age, height, weight, coloring, clothes. All those little boxes to fill in. Anna formed like some verbal hologram in front of our eyes.
Missing person, Anna Franklin, Ms.: age thirty-nine, height five seven. Strikingââprettyâ was always too tame a word for herâgood build (a little heavier since Lily, but she could carry it), with thick black hair cut in a wedge, open face, broad forehead, and full lips in a slight Cupidâs bow.
Identifying marks: pierced ears, no body rings, but a small blue elephant tattoo on her ankle. (No bluebirds or panthers, she had insisted, too New Age. Why not have it full-sized?, I had suggested, as I sat with her in a seafront shop in Brighton watching the needle buzz.)
Clothes: in general, stylish, probably more expensive than she could afford; in particular, no idea, though Paul claimed she had a yellow linen jacket that she hadnât left the house without for the last two months and that wasnât on the hat stand now, and who was I to contradict him?
Character: clever, funny, intense, loving.
There was a pause when we came to the end of the list. Anna? Was that it? I thought about her. There were other things, but I didnât know how to put them into words. At least, not for strangers.
âAny history of depression, mental illness, that kind of thing?â
âNone.â Two voices on a single thought.
âDoes she often spend time away?â
âThe odd night here and there for work,â said Paul briskly.
âAnd who looks after the little girl then?â
âIf itâs in the week, Patricia, the child minder, stays. At weekends Iâm usually around.â
âBut youâre not the childâs father?â
âNo. Not biologically, that is. But I see a lot of them.â
âSo could you tell us what the nature of your relationship with Ms. Franklin is?â
Paul smiled. âWeâre just good friends, Officer,â he said prettily.
âI see.â Though it was clear he didnât. âSo if there was someone else, I mean if she was seeing another man, you wouldnât necessarily know that? She wouldnât tell you?â
â
Au contraireâ
she most certainly would.â He had been so good up till now, not a hint of camp in his performance, and you could see