freezing.â
âThat would be a help to me. Itâs a curse when the water goes to ice.â The low winter sun makes his hair glow. âWell, Iâd better be getting on.â I make to go back to the kitchen. âThe meat and chestnuts wonât roast themselves.â
âAda, would you be at all interested in going to the circus withme? The Van Amburgh will be on the common from Friday, and itâs meant to be a spectacle.â
âI heard that, all right.â
âHave you heard the song?â He pulls himself up straight and begins to chant:
ââVan Amburgh is the man, who goes to all the shows,
He goes into the lionâs cage, and tells you all he knows;
He sticks his head in the lionâs mouth, and keeps it there awhile,
And when he pulls it out again, he greets you with a smile.â â
I giggle and clap, surprised by his boldness, surprised that he knows such a song at all. Daniel bows.
âDoes your man really put his head in the lionâs mouth?â I ask.
âI have no clue. Why donât we go along and see?â
âIâll have to ask Mrs. Dickinson about finishing early on Friday.â
âWell, let me know. Iâll be around the yard all this week.â Daniel tips his cap and strolls away.
I examine the gait of his long body as he saunters off toward the barn. He is a manly man, no doubt about it. I smile to myself, thinking he must know that I am watching him go, that I am taking him in. I wait until he is inside the barn before I dip back into the house to be welcomed by the kitchenâs pleasant heat.
The night is biting. The New England cold is not at all like the cold in Dublin; it is sharper and meaner altogether. Earlier the rags Iwashed and pinned froze on the clothesline; they hung, stiff little flags, waving dully, the very opposite of summer bunting. How forlorn the rags looked after all my work to make them usable again.
But it is not washing or work of any kind I want to think of now, ambling up Main Street beside Daniel, in the thick of the throng that makes for the common and Van Amburghâs tent. A drone of voices drifts above the crowd; people seem excited, a little anxious, maybe. I have my Navarino bonnet on and some old kid gloves of Miss Emilyâsâshe said my woolen mittens were too coarse for walking out with a man. I look up at Daniel; he is handsome in that Irish wayâhe has a bit of a jaw on him, but that is balanced out by good, even features and generous hair. It occurs to me that Mammy would like him, and the thought pleases me.
Mrs. Dickinson gave me a talk this morning, summoning me to her bedroom for all two minutes of it. Her roomâif possibleâ is even sparser than my own, with little more than bed and bureau. I stood a long time waiting for her to speak; I wondered if she expected me to divine what was on her mind.
âRouge spoils the complexion,â she said at last. âDonât wear any.â She stared at me, and I stared at the tallow of her bedside candle, which was running. I wanted to pinch the wick or blow out the flame, to stem the flow. âOnly vulgar women paint themselves,â she said. And then, âYou may leave.â
It wasnât in my plan to wear rougeâit makes girls look wanton, I thinkâbut after she spoke to me I felt like going down to Cutlerâs to buy a pot. Just for pig iron. But I wasnât sure that Daniel would like to see me painted up, so I didnât.
Daniel puts his hand to my back now to guide me into the circus tent. Truth be told, I am wary, though it takes a bit to scareme. The place is dim, and it stinks of dirty straw and manure. The men are rowdy, shouting to one another; the women are quiet, looking at everything. An Irish lad I recognize from about the town lunges in front of us. He is a tall chap, well made, and he grins a lot.
âThere you are, miss,â he says to