more like an uncle.
No, heâs just a friend.
Well, he just sits there, brooding through the loud
boom-booms, smoking like he is about to recite poetry.
Well, actually, he could be a poet.
Ah! So he is a poet.
Do you want to dance or ask questions?
I am dancing.
Good.
While I danced, I looked at the man. Our eyes met. He turned his head,
crushed out his cigarette, stood up, and walked towards us. He laid his hand on
Shohrehâs shoulder and said something in Persian to her. She answered with a brief
nod, gave him a kiss on the cheek, and he left.
Reza danced alone. He was happy and energetic, and like a bear his large
body secured a void around it. When I squeezed Shohreh towards me and slipped both hands
onto her torso, she pushed me away and danced alone. And then slowly she drifted away,
and disappeared into the middle of the crowd.
I walked to the bar and bought myself a drink. A hand rested on my
shoulder and someone laid a kiss on my cheek.
Farhoud, you man-killer, you should buy me a drink first, I said to
him.
He laughed and asked: Is Shohreh here?
Yes â over there. I pointed at the dance floor. Farhoud danced
towards Shohreh, and when she saw him she jumped up and down with joy, and moved into
his arms.
Though I was filled with energy and the music became even more intense and
energizing, I did not dance. Instead I went and sat at Shohrehâs table on the same
chair the poet had occupied. I smoked and watched the women dancing. Manywere young and good-looking. I searched the dance floor until my
eyes alighted on a woman dancing barefoot, her shoes swinging in her hand. She laughed
and danced in a circle of girlfriends. I watched her and smoked. When she left the dance
floor, I stood up, followed her to the bathroom, and waited at the door. When she came
out, I faced her with a smile, blocking her way as she tried to squeeze her shoes
between my ankle and the wall. She looked at the floor. She pushed her right shoulder
against mine. In my high state, with my elephantâs head and my ever-growing numb
lips, I dipped my arm, swung it like a dangling lasso, and seized her wrists. She
stopped pushing and lifted her head. Her face rose from beneath her hair, delicate,
cautious, and still.
I like the way you dance barefoot, I said. Excuse me, I did not mean to
scare you, but I saw you dancing without your shoes and it reminded me of dancing
gypsies.
Do you know any gypsies? she said.
Yes, my sister is one.
Your sister, but not you?
I canât dance like her. So I guess I do not qualify as one.
I dance like a gypsy?
Yes. Will you take off your shoes again?
I will.
I wish I was a gypsy like you or like my sister, I said.
Well, you stole my arm like a gypsy, she said, as she slowly pulled away
her arm and walked towards her friends. She must have told them about me because they
all looked my way. They formed a shield, a circle of human hair balancing on heels. Some
of them were barefoot. In the middle of the circleof sweat and
flesh that flashed and disappeared through strobes of light I saw those girls laughing,
and I felt ashamed to be a hand-thief and a gypsy-lover.
I looked away, and I saw Shohrehâs wide brown eyes watching me. I
knew she had seen everything. She turned her head away. I went and sat next to her, and
she ignored me. She stood up immediately and went to the bathroom.
Later that night, I walked Shohreh back home. She lived down the hill,
towards the train tracks. She told me that she had ambivalent feelings about trains.
When a train passed in the evening, she said, it made her sad.
When I asked her why, she held my chin and said, Well, there are some
feelings that are only oneâs own. Then she ran towards a snowbank and threw
snowballs at me.
I chased her and we threw snow at each other. I caught her by the coat and
wrestled with her in the snow, both of us breathing hard, our eyes