didn’t want to be with another man. Angel was the only man on his mind.
“Can I ask you a question, baby?” She didn’t wait for him to answer. “How come
you haven’t brought any candy home lately?” That’s what Tommy called the men he brought into their bedroom. It was easier for him to say, ‘I’m going to
stop and get some candy on the way home’ than to say ‘I’m going to pick up a
random stranger and let him fuck me senseless’. It became their code word. “It’s
been a while. I don’t remember you
taking a break before. Are you turning
straight on me?” She was teasing him.
“I am straight.”
“Really? Because I think your gay lovers would say
differently.” He never acknowledged that
he was bisexual. She knew he hated the
word. In his head, he was straight. The things he did on the side with men didn’t count.
He cast
his magazine aside and faced her. He
didn’t say anything. He only met her gaze with a defiant smile.
“I have
another question for you.”
“You’re
full of question tonight, aren’t you?” He took her hand and placed it on his crotch. “Maybe I can find something else for you to
do with that inquisitive mouth of yours.”
She
wiggled her eyebrows at him. “I’ll get
to it. I was just wondering, how come
you never top? You’re tough and
masculine. I wouldn’t peg you for a
bottom.”
“I like
the bottom.” H is hand traveled
over her hip and he grabbed her left butt cheek and gave it a hard
squeeze. “I don’t want anyone else’s
ass. This is all the ass I need. If I
want it, I’ll take it. Besides, just
because I’m on the bottom, doesn’t mean I’m not in charge.”
Tommy was in charge of everything
in his life. He knew what he wanted and he went after it. He was in control, which is probably why he
struggled so much with his attraction to men. It was something he couldn’t deny. Something he didn’t have control over.
Jessi
knew he was struggling with his feelings for Angel. He never talked about it, but she knew. When Tommy was near Angel, he shined. That was the only word she could use to
describe it. There was a light in his
eye, an ease in his personality that she never saw before – like Tommy was finally
truly happy, deep down inside. A small
part of her wondered if Tommy would be just as happy if she stepped out of the
equation, but she tried not to think about it.
It was
only a matter of time before the situation came to a head and exploded. Someone already pulled the pin out of the
grenade and she was waiting for the explosion. When the smoke cleared she had no idea where the pieces would land. Even
though the three of them shared a harmonious and close relationship, once Tommy
and Angel connected on a sexual level, their world would change. In the end, there may only be one man, or
woman, standing at Tommy’s side. It
scared the hell out of her, but she couldn’t do anything about it. She knew going in that Tommy was bisexual,
even though he refused to put a label on his sexuality.
She
wasn’t jealousy. She was afraid. You couldn’t dictate who you loved. It wasn’t possible to choose which sex you
were attracted to. But what happens when
you’re attracted to both? Loving two
people at the same time and making it work seemed unrealistic. She understood that asking Tommy to choose
between her and Angel wasn’t a possibility. Ultimatums backfire. Plus, she
always knew Tommy needed a man in his life. She never tried to kid herself into thinking he didn’t. She went into this marriage with her eyes
wide open. She only hoped that there was
room for her in Tommy’s life after he got together with Angel, otherwise she
would step out of the picture. She wouldn’t
take a back seat to anyone.
Chapter Fourteen
A pair of luminescent green eyes
smiled at Angel through the congested