Free Reasonable Doubt 3 by Whitney Gracia Williams Page B

to suppress the butterflies that were fluttering around my stomach.
    The guy I was now dating, Brian—a fellow dancer in the company, was supposed to call me with something important he wanted to talk about.
    Ever since I met him, he’d been trying his hardest to woo me—taking me on dates in between rehearsals, joining me as I danced on rooftops and icy park benches. He was kind, sweet, funny, and the perfect example of what it meant to be a gentleman.
    He was like the nice guy in the Old Hollywood movies, the type that held your hand for no reason at all, the type that walked you to your door and waited until you were completely inside before stepping away. He was the type that kissed you—softly and tenderly, whispering that he liked your lips, but never taking things any further.
    In other words, he was nothing like Andrew.
    Nothing like.
    Even though his kisses never left me panting and wet, and his touches never set my nerves on fire, he never made me feel like shit.
    My phone vibrated and I looked at the screen. Brian.
    “Did you receive the roses I sent you today?”
    I grinned, looking over at the red and white blooms on my fireplace.
    “Yes.” I texted back. “Thank you very much. I love them.”
    “I placed something else in the vase for you, too...You should use it to relax tonight. I’ll be calling you after I get out of rehearsal.”
    “Looking forward to it.” I added a smiley face at the end of my text and walked over to the vase, lifting the flowers up by their stems. There was a huge packet of pink bath beads and rose petals with a handwritten note across the front:
    “The next time you take a bath…Think about me…
    —Brian”
    My heart fluttered and I couldn’t help but want to immediately take him up on the idea. I slipped out of my clothes and headed into the bathroom, tossing the beads under rushing water.
    As I let down my hair, I turned the volume on my ringer to the highest setting, and before I could set it down, I noticed a new email. Andrew.
    My heart nearly jumped out of my chest, as it always did when one of his sporadic emails or calls graced my screen.
    Everything in me told me not to open it, to continue ignoring him, and to let him feel just how alone and underappreciated I felt months ago, but I couldn’t help it.
    Subject: Thoreau & Alyssa.
    You once said that you missed when we were Thoreau and Alyssa because I supposedly treated you better. I don’t think I treated you any differently. I just really wanted to fuck you. But when we did meet in person, I unfortunately wanted to fuck you even more.
    I personally prefer us as “Andrew & Aubrey” because on a night like tonight, when there’s nothing I would rather do than fuck you against my balcony until you cum, at least I can actually picture what your pussy feels like and no longer have to imagine.
    Pick up the phone…
    —Andrew
    I shook my head and set the phone down, mentally erasing that message and stepping into the tub.
    I lay back and let the hot water rise to my chest, exhaling as it warmed my skin.
    It was becoming easier to avoid thinking about Andrew now that I was talking to Brian, but it was harder trying to force myself to forget. I still thought about him late at night when I was in my bed, often wishing he was inside of me.
    Nonetheless, I wasn't running back to him and his asshole-ish ways, and I would never allow him to come back to me.
    Never.
    I scrubbed myself clean with a soft loofah, trying my best to ignore the intense throbbing between my legs that always came when thinking about Andrew. I filled a ladle with water and poured it over my head—unable to push away the thought of Andrew washing my hair in the tub, of him telling me to stand underneath the streams and hold the wall as he grabbed my waist and fucked me from behind.
    My fingers found their way to my clit as I remembered him bending me over the vanity in his bathroom, saying “I need you to fucking take it…All of it…” as he