Free East of Eden by John Steinbeck Page A

woodpile. He ordered whisky and drank it and felt warm and good. He did not see or hear. He simply absorbed the contact.
    As it grew late and the men began to drift away, he became fearful of the time when he would have to go home. Soon he was alone with the bartender, who was rubbing and rubbing the mahogany of the bar and trying with his eyes and his manner to get Adam to go.
    “I’ll have one more,” Adam said.
    The bartender set the bottle out. Adam noticed him for the first time. He had a strawberry mark on his forehead.
    “I’m a stranger in these parts,” said Adam.
    “That’s what we mostly get at the falls,” the bartender said.
    “I’ve been in the army. Cavalry.”
    “Yeah!” the bartender said.
    Adam felt suddenly that he had to impress this man, had to get under his skin some way. “Fighting Indians,” he said. “Had some great times.”
    The man did not answer him.
    “My brother has a mark on his head.”
    The bartender touched the strawberry mark with his fingers. “Birthmark,” he said. “Gets bigger every year. Your brother got one?”
    “His came from a cut. He wrote me about it.”
    “You notice this one of mine looks like a cat?”
    “Sure it does.”
    “That’s my nickname, Cat. Had it all my life. They say my old lady must of been scared by a cat when she was having me.”
    “I’m on my way home. Been away a long time. Won’t you have a drink?”
    “Thanks. Where you staying?”
    “Mrs. May’s boarding house.”
    “I know her. What they tell is she fills you up with soup so you can’t eat much meat.”
    “I guess there are tricks to every trade,” said Adam.
    “I guess that’s right. There’s sure plenty in mine.”
    “I bet that’s true,” said Adam.
    “But the one trick I need I haven’t got. I wisht I knew that one.”
    “What is it?”
    “How the hell to get you to go home and let me close up.”
    Adam stared at him, stared at him and did not speak.
    “It’s a joke,” the bartender said uneasily.
    “I guess I’ll go home in the morning,” said Adam. “I mean my real home.”
    “Good luck,” the bartender said.
    Adam walked through the dark town, increasing his speed as though his loneliness sniffed along behind him. The sagging front steps of his boarding house creaked a warning as he climbed them. The hall was gloomed with the dot of yellow light from an oil lamp turned down so low that it jerked expiringly.
    The landlady stood in her open doorway and her nose made a shadow to the bottom of her chin. Her cold eyes followed Adam as do the eyes of a front-painted portrait, and she listened with her nose for the whisky that was in him.
    “Good night,” said Adam.
    She did not answer him.
    At the top of the first flight he looked back. Her head was raised, and now her chin made a shadow on her throat and her eyes had no pupils.
    His room smelled of dust dampened and dried many times. He picked a match from his block and scratched it on the side of the block. He lighted the shank of candle in the japanned candlestick and regarded the bed—as spineless as a hammock and covered with a dirty patchwork quilt, the cotton batting spilling from the edges.
    The porch steps complained again, and Adam knew the woman would be standing in her doorway ready to spray inhospitality on the new arrival.
    Adam sat down in a straight chair and put his elbows on his knees and supported his chin in his hands. A roomer down the hall began a patient, continuing cough against the quiet night.
    And Adam knew he could not go home. He had heard old soldiers tell of doing what he was going to do.
    “I just couldn’t stand it. Didn’t have no place to go. Didn’t know nobody. Wandered around and pretty soon I got in a panic like a kid, and first thing I knowed I’m begging the sergeant to let me back in—like he was doing me a favor.”
    Back in Chicago, Adam re-enlisted and asked to be assigned to his old regiment. On the train going west the men of his squadron seemed