Free Ice Blue by Anne Stuart Page B

through it all she'd remained shaken but dry-eyed. He wasn't used to it—there was something almost unnatural about her control. As long as she kept that eerie calm, she was capable of bolting, and he couldn't afford to let that happen.
    She needed to break, completely. And if the events of the last twenty-four hours hadn't managed to do it, then he was going to have to finish the job. Until Summer Hawthorne was weeping and helpless, she was a liability.
    He glanced at her pale, set profile. The lights from the oncoming cars prismed through the rain-splattered windshield, dancing across her face in shards of light and dark. Yes, he would have to break her. Or kill her.
    Or maybe both.
     
    Isobel Lambert stubbed out her cigarette, hating the taste in her mouth, the smell on her fingers, hating everything. She needed to go back to the doctor, see if there was something new she could try. She'd already gone through the patch, gum, nasal spray, hypnosis, cognitive therapy, clove cigarettes, and everything else under the sun, but nothing had stuck. She'd manage a day, a week, even three months one time, then something would happen and she'd pick them up again.
    Her therapist had a glib explanation: her job. Her life was all about death. The giving of it, the ordering of it. By smoking she could atone by seeking her own death in a slower, more insidious way.
    Just so much bullshit, Madame Lambert had told the good doctor. If smoking made it easier to accept the hard choices she had to make, then she'd go up to two or three packs a day. But it didn't. Smoking just kept her hands from shaking.
    O'Brien hadn't done his job, and the bodies were piling up. Some civilian had gone over a cliff in the girl's car, and Takashi had had to take out God knows how many of that sicko Shirosama's mindless goons. She'd asked Taka what the fuck he thought he was doing, but he'd been avoiding her messages, and in the end, it was up to him. He had experience and cool determination, and if he was keeping the girl alive there must be a good reason.
    Maybe it had been too soon to put him out in the field again, but she hadn't had much choice. O'Brien was tailor-made for the job—he could speak and read Japanese, he had the connections, the culture. No one else even came close. His body had pretty much recovered from some of the most advanced torture the modern world could devise, and his sangfroid had never been an issue. So why didn't he finish the job? He must still think there was a way to salvage the situation, but from half a world away Isobel couldn't see many signs of hope. But strategy, she knew. And the only way to stop a deluded megalomaniac, if you couldn't get close enough to kill him, was to take away his toys.
    Summer Hawthorne had no idea that's all she was. A toy, a pawn in the hands of some very dangerous people, and both sides were deadly, experienced and ready to kill her before the other could get their hands on her.
    Takashi must be convinced there was something to be gained from keeping her alive, or the situation would be done with and Isobel could finish whatever open pack of cigarettes she was rationing, go back to her elegant apartment and break something.
    She'd tried with cheap dishes, department store glasses. Those didn't work. To stop the pain she had to smash something of value, something of beauty, something irreplaceable. Like the human life she'd just ordered terminated.
    And then she could calm down, pour herself a glass of wine, and no one would have any idea why there were tears streaming down her face. Because by the next day her perfect, flawless complexion would betray absolutely nothing. Only Peter, who knew her better than anyone else, would guess.
    She picked up the mobile phone and pushed the buttons that would send her through a circuitous route to Takashi O'Brien's corresponding device. She didn't expect to reach him, but she had to try. She needed answers, any kind of update. The faint hope that things