someone in the familys going to die. I sounded reasonable, but I kept looking at the dead rat. And that shred of bloodstained burlap. From her snood. She was still wearing it down there in the dark, only now there was a hole in it with her hair sticking up. That look is all the rage among dead women this summer, I thought.
When I was a kid, I really believed that if I stepped on a crack, Id break my mothers back, Henry said musingly.
There-you see?
He brushed rock-dust from the seat of his pants, and stood beside me. I got him, though-I got that fucker, didnt I?
You did! And because I didnt like how he sounded-no, not at all-I clapped him on the back.
Henry was still grinning. If the Sheriff had come back here to look, like you invited him, and seen that rat come tunneling to the top, he might have had a few more questions, dont you think?
Something about this idea set Henry to laughing hysterically. It took him four or five minutes to laugh himself out, and he scared a murder of crows up from the fence that kept the cows out of the corn, but eventually he got past it. By the time we finished our work it was past sundown, and we could hear owls comparing notes as they launched their pre-moonrise hunts from the barn loft. The rocks on top of the vanished well were tight together, and I didnt think any more rats would be squirming to the surface. We didnt bother replacing the broken cap; there was no need. Henry seemed almost like his normal self again, and I thought we both might get a decent nights sleep.
What do you say to sausage, beans, and cornbread? I asked him.
Can I start the generator and play Hayride Party on the radio?
Yessir, you can.
He smiled at that, his old good smile. Thanks, Poppa.
I cooked enough for four farmhands, and we ate it all.
Two hours later, while I was deep in my sitting room chair and nodding over a copy of Silas Marner, Henry came in from his room, dressed in just his summer underdrawers. He regarded me soberly. Mama always insisted on me saying my prayers, did you know that?
I blinked at him, surprised. Still? No. I didnt.
Yes. Even after she wouldnt look at me unless I had my pants on, because she said I was too old and it wouldnt be right. But I cant pray now, or ever again. If I got down on my knees, I think God would strike me dead.
If there is one, I said.
I hope there isnt. Its lonely, but I hope there isnt. I imagine all murderers hope there isnt. Because if theres no Heaven, theres no Hell.
Son, I was the one who killed her.
No-we did it together.
It wasnt true-he was no more than a child, and I had cozened him-but it was true to him, and I thought it always would be.
But you dont have to worry about me, Poppa. I know you think Ill slip-probably to Shannon. Or I might get feeling guilty enough to just go into Hemingford and confess to that Sheriff.
Of course these thoughts had crossed my mind.
Henry shook his head, slowly and emphatically. That Sheriff-did you see the way he looked at everything? Did you see his eyes?
Yes.
Hed try to put us both in the lectric chair, thats what I think, and never mind me not fifteen until August. Hed be there, too, lookin at us with those hard eyes of his when they strapped us in and-
Stop it, Hank. Thats enough.
It wasnt, though; not for him. -and pulled the switch. I aint never letting that happen, if I can help it. Those eyes arent never going to be the last thing I see. He thought over what hed just said. Ever, I mean. Arent ever.
Go to bed, Henry.
Hank.
Hank. Go to bed. I love you.
He smiled. I know, but I dont much deserve it. He shuffled off before I could reply.
And so to bed, as Mr. Pepys says. We slept while the owls hunted and Arlette sat in her deeper darkness with the lower part of her hoof-kicked face swung off to one side. The next day the sun came up, it was a good day for corn, and we did chores.
When I came in hot and tired to fix us a noon meal, there was a covered casserole dish sitting on the porch.
When I was a kid, I really believed that if I stepped on a crack, Id break my mothers back, Henry said musingly.
There-you see?
He brushed rock-dust from the seat of his pants, and stood beside me. I got him, though-I got that fucker, didnt I?
You did! And because I didnt like how he sounded-no, not at all-I clapped him on the back.
Henry was still grinning. If the Sheriff had come back here to look, like you invited him, and seen that rat come tunneling to the top, he might have had a few more questions, dont you think?
Something about this idea set Henry to laughing hysterically. It took him four or five minutes to laugh himself out, and he scared a murder of crows up from the fence that kept the cows out of the corn, but eventually he got past it. By the time we finished our work it was past sundown, and we could hear owls comparing notes as they launched their pre-moonrise hunts from the barn loft. The rocks on top of the vanished well were tight together, and I didnt think any more rats would be squirming to the surface. We didnt bother replacing the broken cap; there was no need. Henry seemed almost like his normal self again, and I thought we both might get a decent nights sleep.
What do you say to sausage, beans, and cornbread? I asked him.
Can I start the generator and play Hayride Party on the radio?
Yessir, you can.
He smiled at that, his old good smile. Thanks, Poppa.
I cooked enough for four farmhands, and we ate it all.
Two hours later, while I was deep in my sitting room chair and nodding over a copy of Silas Marner, Henry came in from his room, dressed in just his summer underdrawers. He regarded me soberly. Mama always insisted on me saying my prayers, did you know that?
I blinked at him, surprised. Still? No. I didnt.
Yes. Even after she wouldnt look at me unless I had my pants on, because she said I was too old and it wouldnt be right. But I cant pray now, or ever again. If I got down on my knees, I think God would strike me dead.
If there is one, I said.
I hope there isnt. Its lonely, but I hope there isnt. I imagine all murderers hope there isnt. Because if theres no Heaven, theres no Hell.
Son, I was the one who killed her.
No-we did it together.
It wasnt true-he was no more than a child, and I had cozened him-but it was true to him, and I thought it always would be.
But you dont have to worry about me, Poppa. I know you think Ill slip-probably to Shannon. Or I might get feeling guilty enough to just go into Hemingford and confess to that Sheriff.
Of course these thoughts had crossed my mind.
Henry shook his head, slowly and emphatically. That Sheriff-did you see the way he looked at everything? Did you see his eyes?
Yes.
Hed try to put us both in the lectric chair, thats what I think, and never mind me not fifteen until August. Hed be there, too, lookin at us with those hard eyes of his when they strapped us in and-
Stop it, Hank. Thats enough.
It wasnt, though; not for him. -and pulled the switch. I aint never letting that happen, if I can help it. Those eyes arent never going to be the last thing I see. He thought over what hed just said. Ever, I mean. Arent ever.
Go to bed, Henry.
Hank.
Hank. Go to bed. I love you.
He smiled. I know, but I dont much deserve it. He shuffled off before I could reply.
And so to bed, as Mr. Pepys says. We slept while the owls hunted and Arlette sat in her deeper darkness with the lower part of her hoof-kicked face swung off to one side. The next day the sun came up, it was a good day for corn, and we did chores.
When I came in hot and tired to fix us a noon meal, there was a covered casserole dish sitting on the porch.
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