Kathy something about next week. She mishears me and answers, âWhere am I going now? Just going home.â
Anything that pretends to be good or is good can be ruined. Too much praise of my work would ruin me because I may feel inclined to raise my rates or go on to bigger and better cleaning jobs. Most people are considerate enough not to overpraise my work. Making love with a customer would ruin the cleaning. My employers and I create a relationship with a void in it. That void is the work to be done. I am afraid of ruin for I feel unruined. These are my pretensions. Evelyn Berkson straightens me out. I am finishing up mopping the hallway. Evelyn is distraught from many sides, she turns to me and says, âHow come you are so relaxed?â âIâm not really relaxed.â âYes you are, compared to me.â âI guess Iâm sort of a loner. I know how to be alone.â âThatâs good.â
A few minutes later Evelyn says, âYou really are nice.â I stop mopping and look at her. She looks away and says, âI envy Shelley, I really do. She is very lucky.â âI can be ruined.â I say.
âWhat? Oh I know that but you donât seem like the kind of guy that goes around hurting people.â I say, âYes, uh, I try not to.â I am left holding the mop; everything is confused except that I heard Shelleyâs name. I have never heard it while cleaning before. Evelyn seems to be pointing the way home. Love is what always points the cleaning man home.
CHAPTER 10
The Clean House
Now the thing is complete. Every room stands connected. Everything in the house follows a clean line. There you are! You donât have to think about cleaning house. If muddy feet walk in, it makes you indignant. The house is just cleaned, it stands in its full kinetic potential. The goof is that the potential is only towards getting d_____y. But the moment is blinding and all of its aspects are glowing. The clean house is exciting.
The clean in the house is what rubbed off you. It is your effort. There was you then there was the house, you added energy and one plus one make two. Clean is the number 2. You arenât lonely; you are on stage.
Cleaning house means coming together. Applause. Take a bow quick before the curtain. The clean house is a jumping off point. I canât tell you more.