Free Cruel Legacy by Penny Jordan Page A

infrequent and unexciting enough to cause her neither resentment nor pleasure—and besides she had not married him for sex.
    Sex... No, she certainly hadn't married him for that. Nor he her.
    She had married him because...
    Edgily she put down her coffee-cup and walked over to the answering machine, running back the tape and then playing it. There was a message from the funeral parlour and as she listened to it she wondered idly how long it had taken the speaker to develop that deeply sepulchral note to his voice. Which had come first, the voice or the job?
    As she allowed her thoughts to wander she acknowledged that she was using them as a means of evading pursuing what she had been thinking earlier.
    The second message was from the bank manager asking her to make an appointment to call and see him, to discuss her own private affairs and those of the company. She frowned as she listened to it. Why would he want to see her about the company's financial affairs? She knew nothing about them.
    Perhaps it was just a formality.
    The tape came to an end. She switched it off and almost immediately the phone rang. She picked up the receiver.
    'Philippa...it's Mummy...'
    Mummy. How falsely affectionate that small word was, making it sound as though the bond between them was close and loving. In reality Philippa doubted that her mother had ever allowed herself to love her. Like her father, her mother's attitude had been that love was something which had to be earned. Love and approval had not been things which had been given freely or from the heart in her childhood home, and Philippa was bitterly conscious of this now as she caught the thread of disapproval running beneath the soft sweetness of her mother's voice.
    When Philippa had been growing up she had never been punished by smacks or harsh words as other children had been; that was not her parents' way. An icy look, the quelling words, 'Philippa, Daddy is very disappointed in you,' and the withdrawal of her mother which accompanied the criticism had always been enough... More than enough to a child as sensitive as she had been, Philippa recognised, and her reactions to them were so deeply entrenched within her that just hearing that cold disapproval in her mother's voice now was enough to make her clench her stomach muscles and grip the receiver as she fought to control the answering anger and pain churning resentfully inside her.
    'Robert has been telling us how foolish Andrew was. Your father and I had no idea he was behaving so recklessly. Your father's very upset about it. No one here seems to have heard anything about it yet, but it's bound to get out, and you know that he's captain this year of the golf club-—'
    Philippa was trembling again. 'I doubt that any of his golfing cronies are likely to hear about Andrew,' she interrupted, trying to keep her voice as level and light as she could, but unable to resist the irony of adding, 'And of course Andrew wasn't Daddy's son...'
    'No, of course there is that,' her mother allowed patiently, oblivious to Philippa's sarcasm; so oblivious in fact that she made Philippa feel both childishly petty and furiously angry. 'But he was your husband and in the circumstances Daddy feels that it might be a good idea if you didn't come over to see us for a while. Poor, dear Robert is terribly upset about the whole thing, you know. I mean, you do live almost on his doorstep and he's held in such high esteem... Have you made any arrangements yet for the... ?' Delicately her mother let the sentence hang in the air.
    'For the cremation, you mean?' Philippa asked her grimly. 'Yes. It will be on Friday, but don't worry, Mother; I shall quite understand if you don't feel you want to be there.'
    'It isn't a question of wanting...' her mother told her, obviously shocked. 'One has a duty, and Andrew was after all our son-in-law, although I must say, Philippa, I could never really understand why you married him, nor could Daddy. We did try to warn