underwear, slacks, slips, socks,
putting, hanging, tossing them across
the backs of chairs, the wings of metal screens;
for now, the doctor says, itâs not too bad,
you may get dressed, get rested up, get out of town,
take one in case, at bedtime, after lunch,
show up in a couple of months, next spring, next year;
you see, and you thought, and we were afraid that,
and he imagined, and you all believed;
itâs time to tie, to fasten with shaking hands
shoelaces, buckles, velcro, zippers, snaps,
belts, buttons, cuff links, collars, neckties, clasps
and to pull out of handbags, pockets, sleeves
a crumpled, dotted, flowered, checkered scarf
whose usefulness has suddenly been prolonged.
On Death, Without Exaggeration
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It canât take a joke,
find a star, make a bridge.
It knows nothing about weaving, mining, farming,
building ships, or baking cakes.
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In our planning for tomorrow,
it has the final word,
which is always beside the point.
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It canât even get the things done
that are part of its trade:
dig a grave,
make a coffin,
clean up after itself.
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Preoccupied with killing,
it does the job awkwardly,
without system or skill.
As though each of us were its first kill.
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Oh, it has its triumphs,
but look at its countless defeats,
missed blows,
and repeat attempts!
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Sometimes it isnât strong enough
to swat a fly from the air.
Many are the caterpillars
that have outcrawled it.
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All those bulbs, pods,
tentacles, fins, tracheae,
nuptial plumage, and winter fur
show that it has fallen behind
with its halfhearted work.
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Ill will wonât help
and even our lending a hand with wars and coups dâétat
is so far not enough.
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Hearts beat inside eggs.
Babiesâ skeletons grow.
Seeds, hard at work, sprout their first tiny pair of leaves
and sometimes even tall trees far away.
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Whoever claims that itâs omnipotent
is himself living proof
that itâs not.
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Thereâs no life
that couldnât be immortal
if only for a moment.
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Death
always arrives by that very moment too late.
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In vain it tugs at the knob
of the invisible door.
As far as youâve come
canât be undone.
The Great Manâs House
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The marble tells us in golden syllables:
Here the great man lived, and worked, and died.
Here are the garden paths where he personally scattered the gravel.
Hereâs the benchâdonât touchâhe hewed the stone himself.
And hereâwatch the stepsâwe enter the house.
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He managed to come into the world at what was still a fitting time.
All that was to pass passed in this house.
Not in housing projects,
not in furnished but empty quarters,
among unknown neighbors,
on fifteenth floors
that student field trips rarely reach.
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In this room he thought,
in this alcove he slept,
and here he entertained his guests.
Portraits, armchair, desk, pipe, globe,
flute, well-worn carpet, glassed-in porch.
Here he exchanged bows with the tailor and shoemaker
who made his coats and boots to order.
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Itâs not the same as photographs in boxes,
dried-out ballpoint pens in plastic cups,
store-bought clothes in store-bought closets,
a window that looks out on clouds, not passersby.
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Was he happy? Sad?
Thatâs not the point.
He still made confessions in letters
without thinking theyâd be opened en route.
He still kept a careful, candid diary
knowing it wouldnât be seized in a search.
The thing that most frightened him was a cometâs flight.
The worldâs doom lay then in Godâs hands alone.
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He was lucky enough to die not in a hospital,
not behind some white, anonymous screen.
There was still someone there at his bedside to memorize
his mumbled words.
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As if he had been given
a reusable life:
he sent out books to be bound,
he didnât strike the names of the dead from his ledgers.
And the trees that he planted in the garden by his house
still grew for him as
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