feet.
âYou okay like that?â
âWhy wouldnât I be?â
âI donât know. You could step on a rusty nail or a hypodermic needle.â
She laughed. âA hypodermic needle? Youâre such a loser.â
We walked along Dormant Street, the cobwebbed streetlamps lighting our way in glimmering orange patches. Splattered on the curb, beside the last taxi at the end of the block, was a soupy puddle of beige vomit.
âGross,â Melanie said as she jumped to avoid it.
I looked back over my shoulder. It was hard to see through the tinted glass, but I thought I could make out a figure in the taxiâs back seat, staring at us from somewhere behind my warped reflection.
6
If I am in a skull-cracking car accident and suffer amnesia, or if I develop Alzheimerâs, or even if I die and thereâs no heaven, I will always remember that first night with Melanie Blaxley.
We got to my place just after two. I offered her a glass of wine from the bottle Iâd opened earlier, but she refused.
âThis place smells like candy canes. Whereâs your bathroom?â
I pointed to the wide-open door, right beside where she was standing, through which my toilet and sink were both visible. She went inside and slammed the door hard. I thought about the prostitute whoâd puked in there just last week. It felt like eons ago.
The toilet flushed, then flushed again. I heard the scrape of my plastic garbage can across the tiles. The tap. The squeak of my medicine cabinet. Another flush.
âEverything okay in there?â
âComing!â
The reality of the situation hit me: I was going to get laid. My saliva turned hot. I sat down. The door swung open.
âSorry about that.â She skipped over and sat next to me on the couch. Crossed her legs. âDonât mind the pad in your garbage can. Iâm on my rag.â
âOh.â
She lunged forward and planted her lips on my cheek. âHow old are you?â
âTwenty-nine.â
âReally? You seem younger.â
âEveryone tells me that.â
âI would have said twenty-three. At the oldest.â
âNope.â
âGot any ID there, buddy?â
I tried to laugh.
She put her hand on my leg. âWhy are you holding your hands like that? Donât tell me youâre
praying
. Are you a virgin?â
âNo, no. And Iâm not praying.â
âThen why donât you touch my tits?â
âHuh?â
âCome on.â She ran her fingernail along the seam of my jeans. âYouâre so stiff. Are you sure youâre not a virgin? You can admit it. Iâm still gonna let you fuck me.â
âI thought you said youâre on your period.â
âYeah, so?â
âI . . .â
She threw her head back and laughed. âIâve never fucked anyone so nice before.â She pulled off her T-shirt in one smooth motion. Her pale, small-nippled breasts were dusted with freckles. âCome on, letâs get you hard.â
She got down onto her knees and scraped her nails up my legs to my zipper. I could feel my heartbeat in my neck.
A glistening dribble of saliva hung on her bottom lip. âWhat are you going to do to me, Brandon?â
It was the first time Iâd heard her say my name. I looked up at my ceiling and mouthed a thank-you at the browned water stain in the corner.
But then something happened. I looked down at the orange mane bobbing between my legs, and the face that turned up to meet my gaze wasnât sprightly and freckled, not Melanieâs face at all, but the smirking, wrinkled mug of Suzie the prostitute.
âJesus!â
âWhat? Whatâs wrong?â She was Melanie once again, startled and annoyed.
âI . . . I donât . . .â
âGive me a fucking break.â She stood up and stomped into the kitchen, the crease of her shorts wedged into her ass crack. She poured herself a mug of water from