is not so much about the death of my children or aboutâabout Monseigneur dâOrléans â¦â she went on quietly after a slight pause, while her fingers burrowed into the embroidery of the coverlet. âI believe that sorrow is the portion of all women ⦠that does not make it easier to bear. But there are things one can learn to accept.â
Queen Blanche smiled in compassion. She saw through Valentineâs heroic attempt at self-deception.
âWhat is vexing you then, ma mie? I want nothing better than to help you ⦠if that lies in my power. A sympathetic ear can also be a help, if no advice is possible.â
âThe King,â whispered Valentine, with a sidelong glance at the ladies-in-waiting. âI worry about the King.â The older woman leaned forward; the lappets of her veil fell over the blanket.
âWe do not need to pretend with each other. You know as well as I do that the Kingâs illness is incurable. It still amazes me that it took so long for the seizures to come upon him. I saw it in him when he was only a childâhe was restless and filled with strange notions. Indeed, his mother, Queen Jeanne, also suffered from a weakness in her head; there were times when she could not remember anything, not even her own name, nor her rank, or recognize the faces of her children. She suffered terribly when she came to herself again and everyone suffered with her, for she was a sweet lady, Queen Jeanne; after her death her husband said of her that she had been the sun of his kingdomâa somewhat pale sun, perhaps.â She smiled, lost in memory. âBut it was well put and it expressed what many people felt. She had grace and charmâtwo important qualities, which Monseigneur dâOrléans inherited from her.â
âThe King does not want to recognize the Queen,â Valentine said, looking up at Blancheâs face. âThe Queen suffers because of it. This afternoon when they were hereâhe thrust her away from him. My heart bled for her; she loves the King so much.â
âLoves ⦠!â said Queen Blanche, not without mockery. âPure madness. That is the love of the doe for the buck, the ewe for the ram. It is irresistible in the spring and when the leaves fall, it is over.â
Valentine shook her head.
âYou cannot say that, Madame. I was with the Queen whenthey brought her the news of the Kingâs first attack of madness in the forest of Mans; I saw how the blow struck her. It was as though she had lost her senses herself. And doesnât she do what she can for him? Each day while he was there, she sent a message to Creil to ask him if he wanted anything. I have heard it said that she stands weeping outside his door when he does not wish to see her. Oh, but I feel with her too,â she continued vehemently. âIt is unbearable to know that someone you love is close by and unreachably distant and ⦠gone â¦â
âThe Queen has a staunch advocate in you, ma mie,â the older woman said shrewdly. âAnd she does not deserve it.â
A flush flooded into Valentineâs face; she lowered her eyes.
âI know very well that the Queen cannot abide me,â she murmured, almost inaudibly. âThat is also one of the things that pains me. I understand itâthe discord between Bavaria and the Visconti â¦â
âAnd more yetâ¦â Queen Blanche nodded significantly. âMuch more yetâand that is worse. You know what I mean.â
âYes, my God!â whispered the Duchess of Orléans; she raised both hands in a gesture of despair. âBut I do not
want
that at allâI cannot help it. I love the King very much ⦠he has always been kind and gentle to me ⦠but surely no one would dare to say â¦â
She pressed the palms of her hands against her cheeks and turned her head slowly from side to side. âThe Queen cannot think that,