think Juliet is more than half-inclined to boot me out.â
âWhy? What happened?â
âItâs . . . just a feeling,â Lucy said, knowing she was being lame. On the screen Chloeâs image had unfrozen and then frozen again, so she was stuck in midâeye roll. She should have known better than to expect unquestioning sympathy from Chloe. âItâll get better, I suppose,â she said with absolutely no conviction.
âIt will if you try,â Chloe said. âMaybe this is a chance for you to get to know your sister properly.â
âI thought that when I came, but honestly, Chloe, sheâs notââ
âGet to the bottom of what happened between you twoââ
âNothing
happened
. Before I came here, we had maybe five conversations total.â
âAnd why was that?â Chloe pressed, and Lucy slumped back against the bed, a pillow clutched to her chest.
âBecause I donât think Juliet was ever interested in knowing me.â
âBut she invited you, so something must have changed. Maybe thereâs some tension, but thereâs also opportunity.â
Chloe always saw opportunity. Theyâd been friends since they were eighteen and as the years had gone on, Lucy had fallen further and further behind in the opportunity stakes. Chloe had graduated from Boston University summa cum laude; Lucy had barely scraped a 3.0. Chloe had gone to grad school; Lucy had started as a barista. And now Chloe had some high-flying job in marketing and her own office, and Lucy had . . .
A temporary job and a sister who hated her.
âAll Iâm saying,â Chloe persevered, âis try to see the bright sideââ
âIâve been seeing the bright side my whole life,â Lucy cut across her. âYou
know
that. But maybe there isnât one here. Maybe Iâm stuck in the middle of nowhere, England, with a sister and a boss who both hate me. And itâs freezing here, by the way. And it rains. Constantly.â
Chloe cocked her head. âFinished?â
âNo, I havenât mentioned the wind. It is so windy I am doomed to have a bad hair day for the next four months.â
âNow,
that
sucks.â
Lucy let out a little laugh. She couldnât hold on to her self-pity for long. âYes, it does suck. Majorly.â
Chloe was silent for a moment, and Lucy wasnât sure it was due to the lag in the Internet connection. âYou donât think things could get better with Juliet?â she finally asked.
âI donât know if I want to try.â Chloeâs image had unfrozen again and she saw her glance at her watch. Lucy straightened and tossed the pillow sheâd been clutching back on the bed. âI know you have to go. Thanks for listening.â
âOkay. Hang in there. Skype me on Saturday. Iâll only be at the office until lunchtime.â
âRight.â When the call had ended and Chloeâs image faded to black, Lucy felt the silent emptiness of the house around her once more. She hugged her knees to her chest as she considered, reluctantly, what Chloe had suggested.
Could she talk to Juliet about what had happened with their mother? Should she apologize?
For what? Being born?
She felt a surge of anger, a sudden white-hot flare of feeling, because it wasnât her fault that Fiona had decided to go the sperm donor route and have another baby. Juliet shouldnât blame her for their motherâs choices, but she had no idea how to make her feel otherwise. How did you reconcile with someone who resented your very existence?
Lucy fell asleep sometime towards ten; sheâd heard Juliet come in and the sound of her bedroom door closing, but she didnât move from her bed. She just wriggled out of her bra, peeled back the duvet, and snuggled down, content to let the world slip away.
She woke up to the shocking reality of bright sunshine pouring