and Iâll keep out of any more trouble. Satisïed?â
I had to make do with a sniff and a cold shoulder, but I was not in the mood to be scolded. My head thumped, my mouth was dry, I ached all over and I was furious with myself for my lack of foresight. The fact that Jim had outwitted me so easily left me boiling with rage. âWhatâs the time?â I asked grudgingly.
âJust past eleven.â
âHas Mother gone to Madame Merrick?â
âYes, but sheâs that worried, says sheâll be home at twelve to see how ye are.â
I could tell Jenna was more than usually upset and it was not fair of me to vent my anger on her. âIâm sorry,â I said softly, âIâm very grateful you didnât tell her and Iâve no right to snap. Are we friends?â
âCould be,â she replied, âif ye sit still enough so I can do yer hair.â
The river was intensely blue, completely still, the sun glinting so brightly it made my eyes water. Why had he stolen the evidence? What did he hope to gain? I was deep in thought as I stepped into the ferry. Either he was going to demand money from me, or he was planning to blackmail Mr Tregellas. He knew I had no money, so that was not the reason and if he blackmailed Mr Tregellas, he would be in too much danger of exposing himself as the thief. What would someone like Jim do?
I jumped at the sound of my name. I had not heard the ferryman ask for his fare.
âGettinâ out, Miss Pengelly, or are ye here for the ride?â It was Joshua Tregen. I remembered him as a thin, spotty youth who I used to row against in the gig races. I had not liked him then and I had no reason to like him now. âPerhaps yer just wanted to watch me row, Miss Pengelly? Yer like muscles on a man, do yer?â he said, pufïng up his chest, ïexing his torso.
âAdmire your rowing? You know very well I can row every bit as well as you, Joshua Tregen,â I said, throwing my money into the boat.
I was angry with Joshua Tregen for speaking to me like that, but even angrier with myself â it was another manâs muscles I had been picturing in my mind. Losing the evidence was my main concern but something else was making me uneasy. I had found discrepancies in Madame Merrickâs accounts. Several invoices for silk and half a dozen rolls of velvet and satin were missing and I was not looking forward to telling her she would need them before she could clear her books with the Custom and Excise ofïcials.
I climbed the steps to ïnd the shop in even more disarray than usual and Mother looking decidedly ïustered. âOh, Rosehannon,â she cried, wringing her hands, âthank goodness youâre alright. I was that worried this morning. I wanted to send for Mrs Abbott, but Jenna said youâd just had a restless night. I suppose you were dreaming when you thought you heard a fox? Let me look at you. You look very pale.â
âIâm ïne, honest, Mother â it was just a bad dream.â
âGood. Iâ¦I couldnât take it if anything was to happen to you.â She looked down at the ïoor, suddenly shy at her emotion and my heart ached. She seemed so fragile in her shabby dress, her spotless apron and her mobcap neatly pinned in place. Talking to Jim had made me realise how much I had shunned her as a child, always competing for my fatherâs approval. I could see how very lonely she must have felt, left all day in a childless house, the hollow rooms echoing her empty heart. I felt terrible. She had a skill I had completely disregarded â no wonder she loved teaching Jenna to sew.
I took hold of her hands, determined to make amends. âNothing will happen to me, Iâm very strong.â She smiled and I dropped my voice. âYou havenât told Madame Merrick I was tired this morning, have you?â
âDear Lord, no â thereâs no telling