Free Lookout Cartridge by Joseph McElroy Page A

with her coat on.
    I entered to the tune of a commercial in the living room and Sub’s angry voice. Myrna called, I’m going now.
    I said, I have your eighteen ten.
    The TV stopped and Sub’s voice was saying, If this room isn’t picked up there will be no TV period . I’ll take this discount portable which has proved its portability between here and the premises of our gifted repairman who specializes exclusively in new discount sets and I will drop it out of this living-room window.
    Sub came into the hall, he had on a white T-shirt and bore a pile of folded laundry just high enough to touch his shaggy beard. Myrna said to me, Got my money right here in my bag.
    I paid her, said Sub.
    What if it hit somebody, said Tris offstage.
    They’d put Daddy in jail, said Ruby.
    Tris said, In the Tombs.
    I wouldn’t let them, said Ruby.
    Myrna left and Sub was facing me and in the light from behind him his dark glasses seemed darker. He needed to speak, and to an intelligent white adult roughly of his background; but I wanted to ask about phone calls and I saw myself waiting for a phone call and saw the two of us over the midnight hill and deep into late late time watching on TV King Kong we saw together during the Korean War about the time I entered the Coast Guard.
    Facing me Sub was nonetheless addressing Tris and Ruby who were still out of sight in the living room so his voice was loud: Myrna gets two-fifty an hour plus carfare for, among other things, cleaning up this apartment, and you come home from a private school that’s costing me five hundred dollars a month and not only spread your printing press and uncapped magic markers over the indestructible rug your gifted mother bought when we moved in but also the caran d’ache Swiss modeling dreck with guaranteed highly perishable gouache colors she was good enough to buy you today.
    We didn’t want to mess up our rooms, said Tris.
    You were at the dentist, said Ruby.
    Myrna had gone. When the panhandler had accosted me outside the record store I hadn’t quite reached the result of my division and subtraction but I thought it was forty-nine.
    Sub hadn’t budged and now he was addressing me too.
    My hands came out of my trenchcoat.
    I phoned the dentist for two solid hours, he said. I couldn’t get in between the busy signals.
    You were calling him? I said.
    Rose phoned Myrna she was taking the children, so I wanted to come home and give them some money and see that Ruby had her asthma medicine, so I’ve got to put off the dentist, right? But I couldn’t get him, and rather than pay for a missed appointment I find a gifted cabdriver who immediately gets stuck in traffic, and I reach the dentist’s just as his girl’s getting a busy signal at my office or so she says, she’s been phoning patients half the afternoon, Doctor Wall went home at lunchtime with a colitis attack. When I get home I find Myrna tried to reach me at the office to say Rose won’t be taking Tris and Ruby after all—if you want to know why I’m suffering from brain damage—Rose came over earlier in the day with the caran d’ache for them and would have left it with the doorman because she is a mysterious fairy goodmother but we haven’t had a doorman this week because he had some trouble getting into his own apartment house uptown the other night, but Rose was in luck, only Myrna was here because the children’s bus was delayed at the garage getting new shocks according to Tris. And meanwhile you, I suppose, have signed a contract for another film.
    Sub disappeared into Ruby’s room so I was alone in the front hall. Sub behind me to my left, the children around a threshold to my right, rustling, straightening, fitting.
    Any messages? I said.
    Sub’s voice was as if he’d put his head in a closet. All I’ve achieved today is provide a setting for you to receive phone calls.
    They were on a pad in the kitchen next to a package of chopped meat the color of crushed strawberries.
    The