me?” Ursula touched her friend’s arm, her skin velvet soft. “You’re skinnier than me, girl, and you just had a baby a few months ago! Your body is incredible. And Mike loves you. Don’t think for a minute—”
“Oh, I know he does, but...” Jill sighed. “He just won’t fuck me.”
“Have you tried seducing him?”
“Yeah.” Jill laughed. “But Mikey has a way of waking up, every single time. And even when he doesn’t, every time I get turned on, my milk starts to flow and… then it’s all over.”
“Do you want me to talk to him?” Ursula offered. Jill blushed, looking at her friend, but she shrugged. “Look, I’m a lactation consultant. I can talk to him as a professional. Let him know this is a pretty common issue, and whatever he’s scared of, he doesn’t have to be.”
“The thing is… I heard Mike talking to Mitch at Mikey’s christening. He didn’t know I was listening.”
“Mitch?” Ursula perked up at the mention of her stepfather. “About what?”
“Mitch was asking, you know, about the baby, and how we were sleeping, and all that. He sure does like babies…”
“I know.” Ursula smiled. Her stepfather was desperate to have one, but Ursula’s mother was insistent that she was done. More than done. Ursula was an only child, and her mother often said, if she had it to do over, she wouldn’t have even done it the first time. “He’s come to some of our births—as a photographer. He’s great at it.”
“Yeah.” Jill nodded. “I wish he’d been available to do ours. His photographs are amazing.”
“My mother dragged him to that charity thing that week.” Ursula rolled her eyes. “So anyway, Mitch and Mike were talking…”
“Mitch was really curious about the breastfeeding thing. Was asking Mike questions—and Mike said… He said he couldn’t wait for it to be over, so he could have my body back.”
“He said that?”
“Yeah.” Jill sighed. “Mitch was really sweet—he told Mike just what you say. That it’s the most natural thing in the world, but… well, Mike wasn’t hearing him. Then Mike said… he said he didn’t want to share me.”
“You know, lots of guys feel that way,” Ursula told her. “But most of them get over it. And, as the baby gets older, and things settle down, things go back to the way they were. And remember, newborns feed a lot. I mean, by the time Mikey’s eating solid food, you won’t be producing as much milk. Mike will come around.”
“Yeah and until then, I get to be sleep and sex deprived.” Jill groaned.
“Ugh, you poor thing.” Ursula stroked Jill’s hair. “But honestly, your marriage is strong enough to get you through this. It’s always hard, after a new baby.”
“I wish it was hard.” Jill snorted. “His cock, I mean.”
“You can still take care of yourself, girl.” Ursula dropped her a wink. “Lots of women lose their sex drive after having a baby, especially if they’re nursing. All that constant nipple stimulation.”
“Oh fuck, it’s the opposite for me.” Jill sighed. “My nipples have always been so sensitive. Now, they’re getting sucked twelve times a day, and I know I shouldn’t get turned on but…”
“It’s a natural response,” Ursula replied, shaking her head. “Nothing weird about it.”
“It feels weird.” Jill sighed. “Oh hell, I’m leaking.”
Ursula looked down and saw two stains spreading on Jill’s t-shirt.
“See, all I have to do is think about my tits getting sucked, and look what happens?” Jill half-sat, looking down at the wet spots on her shirt. “Owwww…”
“Hurt?” Ursula asked sympathetically.
“They’re so full,” Jill gasped. “It feels tight and hot. It kind of
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