he even makes gear shifting noises.
Soon the younger brother notices us and follows. Heâs loud and doesnât know how to play with the cars the way Ted says. His name is Joey.
Ted and Jim arenât happy about this, and so Jim takes Joey back down the steps and distracts him with the G.I. Joes.
When Joey isnât paying attention, Jim returns to the landing. We have a few good wrecks and explosions before Joey is back on the landing.
After this happens a few more times, I start to wish Joey would stay at the bottom of the steps. He interrupts us so much that I feel like we didnât get to play long enough when Mom comes to tell us itâs time to eat.
The four of us follow her into the dining room where thereâs a big table for the grown-ups and a smaller table for the kids. One of the men says the blessing and offers up a prayer of thanksgiving for Ezraâs health.
The food is passed around after that. Thereâs roast beef, mashed potatoes and gravy, green beans, Jell-o, rolls, and things like that. Mom makes sure I get a helping of green beans.
I donât say much during the meal. Ted and Jim talk about what they want for Christmas. The grown-ups talk about the weather and the choir at church. No one talks about Starla.
I wish somebody wanted to talk about her. Talking about her is the next best thing to seeing her. I hope sheâs OK.
My mom cried when she heard Starla disappeared. I think she was thinking about how sheâd feel if it was me or my sister who was missing. I didnât tell her that I was in the woods with Starla, but somehow she found out.
My dad wasnât happy when he heard about it. âYou know better than that,â he said. âI donât ever want to hear about you sneaking off during recess again. Look what happens when you disobey.â
I knew dad would be disappointed in me, but wasnât Starla more important? I donât understand why it bothers him so much if I âgoof off.â He always wants me to be so serious.
The grown-ups are passing the food around a second time when I ask to use the bathroom. I finished my plate and need to go number one.
My mom tells me the bathroom is at the top of the stairs. âDonât forget to wash your hands,â she says.
I shove my chair away from the table and walk out of the dining room. In the hall, I decide I donât like old houses. They smell funny and creak every time you take a step.
The stairs make more noise than the floor does. Past the landing, itâs a lot darker than downstairs.
The bathroom is across from the stairs, just like mom said. Inside, thereâs a big white tub with feet. The toilet sits next to a window on the far wall. Itâs freezing near the window and I canât see out of it because itâs frosted.
I pee and then turn around to wash my hands. Thereâs a little piece of soap shaped like a sea shell in a dish on the sink. The whole room is really plain.
I wipe my hands on my jeans because I canât find a towel. At the bathroom door, the sound of everyone downstairs in the dining room is far away. I stop to listen to them for a few seconds, and pick out Momâs voice from the rest.
There are two rooms with open doors on each side of the bathroom. One looks like a bedroom. It must be Ezraâs. The other is filled with cardboard boxes and piles of newspapers.
There is a third room but the door is closed. I didnât see it at first because itâs around the corner from the stairs. The door has a keyhole in it like the others, with a skinny metal key inside.
I wonder why this room is closed. All the other rooms in the house are open. Maybe itâs a closet. The light from the bathroom window falls at the bottom of this door and I can see thereâs something small underneath.
On my hands and knees, I find that itâs the edge of a pink ribbon. I pull and the rest of it comes out from under the door. A pink