say?â
âWe can start with why you changed your mind about me calling my dad after I told you what I was doing at RTC.â
âI already explained that.â
âYou were lying.â
He opens his mouth to protest but fumbles for words. It doesnât matter. Over his shoulder, I see something far more concerning than Kyleâs behavior.
The men from South Station have found me.
Chapter Five
Eleven Weeks Ago
The bleachers shake, a lurching sea of blue sweatshirts. Then a single boy emerges from the mass and collapses on the floor. More screams follow. I strain to see around the girl in front of me as a crowd gathers around the boy.
âDavid! David, can you hear me?â someone yells, kneeling next to him.
The other person pulls Davidâs hands away from his face, and I hold my breath. At first glance, his skin appears red, a normal reaction to the AnChlor. But then I see whatâs really going on. That red isnât his skin. Itâs blood, and itâs leaking from his eyes and nose. He lies on the floor, unresponsive.
I grip the railing, frozen.
âEverybody, get them out of here.â One of the faculty members is yelling at the staff, and someone else is already on the phone, calling for an ambulance.
Behind me, crying students, most probably unaware of whatâs happening below, are pushing past, lost in their own discomfort and desperate for fresher air.
Iâm also lost. I canât move, and Iâm shoved and bumped as the others hurry to leave.
This wasnât supposed to happen. The AnChlor is supposed to be safe. My plan was good. Yet Davidâs body remains still and bleeding, and Iâm also still, and inside I feel like Iâm bleeding too.
Xâs life is important, far more important than most peopleâs lives. I know this. Rationally. Logically. I know. And yet, how is this right or fair? How do I tell myself this is okay?
Sometimes we must make trade-offsâtwo-hundred-eighteen variations thereof.
Iâve made tradeoffs before. I believe that occasionally some people must die for the good of others. But those some people? Theyâve never been good in the first place. Theyâre not innocent. Their deaths do the world a favor.
This student, on the other hand, is innocent. Heâs someone like Audrey or Kyle or Chase. Someone like Sophia. Heâs not supposed to be a trade-off. This wasnât supposed to happen, and I canât rationalize away the idea that the bleeding body on the gym floor could have been one of the people Iâd been laughing with earlier at dinner. Nor can I ignore the irony that I came here to save one innocent personâs life, and what if I just took another innocent life in the process?
X is more important, I remind myself. But thinking it and feeling it are two different things, and Iâm not feeling it at all. The only thing Iâm feeling is sick.
I turn my head away from David as I shuffle down the bleachers. This is weakness, and I hope Iâll snap out of it. In the meantime, no more AnChlor. Iâm glad I got rid of the rest. I have time, after all. My next attempt to find X will be done differently.
Screw efficiency. Some things are more important.
Chapter Six
Ten Weeks Ago
As anticipated, the AnChlor dissipated before it could be detected. Engineers and a hazmat team have inspected every inch of the building and deemed it safe. No one is sure what caused the problem, but only Iâm certain it wonât happen again. Thatâs because I made it clear in my last report that Iâm not making a second go at it.
Since I failed to collect any useful information with the first attempt, I donât expect much pushback, and so far none has come. But I need to put my slow, tedious backup plan into action soon or it will.
Rain splatters against the dormâs main doors while I wait for Audrey. Weâre supposed to be heading to physics recitation, which is on the
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