isnât a favor,â Silk said. âIâd do that much for anyone; but of course you want me to make a special effort for this Auk, to speak to him and take him aside, and so on; and I will.â
âThank you, Patera. Patera, youâve known me for over a year now. Am I lacking in faith?â
The question caught Silk by surprise. âYou, Maytera? Whyâwhy Iâve never thought so. Youâve always seemed, I mean to me at leastââ
âYet I havenât had the faith in you, and the god who enlightened you, that I shouldâve had. I just realized it. Iâve been trusting in merely human words and appearances, like any petty trader. You were saying that the god had promised Patera Pike help, I think. Could you tell me more about that? I was only listening with care before. This time Iâll listen with faith, or try to.â
âThereâs more than I could ever tell.â Silk stroked his cheek. He had himself in check now. âPatera Pike was enlightened, as I said; and I was shown his enlightenment. He was told that all those prayers he had said over so many years were to be granted that dayâthat the help he had asked for, for himself and for this manteion and the whole quarter, would be sent to him at once.â
Silk discovered that his fists were clenched. He made himself relax. âI was shown all that; then I saw that help arrive, alight as if with Pasâs fire from the sun. And it was me. That was all it was, just me.â
âThen you cannot fail,â Maytera Marble told him softly.
Silk shook his head. âI wish it were that easy. I can fail, Maytera. I dare not.â
She looked grave, as she often did. âBut you didnât know this until today? At noon, in the ball court? Thatâs what you said.â
âNo, I didnât. He told me something else, you seeâthat the time has come to act.â
Maytera Marble sighed again. âI have some information for you, Patera. Discouraging information, Iâm afraid. But first I want very much to ask you just one thing more, and tell you something, perhaps. It was the Outsider who spoke to you, you say?â
âYes. I donât know a great deal about him, however, even now. Heâs one of the sixty-three gods mentioned in the Writings, but I havenât had a chance to look him up since it happened, and as I remember there isnât a great deal about him anyway. He told me about himself, things that arenât in the Writings unless Iâve forgotten them; but I havenât really had much time to think about them.â
âWhen we were outside like him, living in the Short Sun Whorl before this one was finished and peopled, we worshipped him. No doubt you knew that already, Patera.â
âIâd forgotten it,â Silk admitted, âbut youâre right. Itâs in the tenth book, or the twelfth.â
âWe chems didnât share in sacrifices in the Short Sun Whorl.â Maytera Marble fell silent for a moment, scanning old files. âIt wasnât called manteion, either. Something else. If only I could find that, I could remember more, I think.â
Without understanding what she meant, Silk nodded.
âThere have been many changes since then, but it used to be taught that he was infinite. Not merely great, but truly without limit. There are expressions like thatâI mean in arithmetic. Although we never get to them in my class.â
âHe showed me.â
âThey say that even the whorl ends someplace,â Maytera Marble continued, âimmense though it is. He doesnât. If you were to divide him among all the things in it, each part of him would still be limitless. Didnât you feel awfully small, Patera, when he was showing you all these things?â
Silk considered his answer. âNo, I donât think I did. No, I didnât. I feltâwell, great. I felt that way even though he was
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