Free Date Night (Wish Come True Book 1) by R.C. Matthews Page B

my full breast. The moment his mouth
enclosed around the pulsating bud and suckled hard, I was lost and threw back
my head with a guttural moan. An explosion of heat gathered in my nether
region. No. I had no doubt he wanted me physically but that wasn’t going to be
enough for me.
    “This has nothing to do with
feelings,” I challenged as I ran my hand down his back and around his hip to
rub provocatively against his rock hard length. I hadn’t had many lovers but I
knew enough to know he was exceptional and I was more than curious about how
he’d feel buried deep inside of me. His head reared up at my touch and he
sucked his bottom lip into his mouth with a gasp when I enclosed him tightly in
my hand.
    “This is just physical need JT,” I
murmured. “Don’t get me wrong, babe. I’m definitely enjoying your desire. But
what I really want to know is what you’re feeling in here.” My hand traveled up
to rest on his heart.
    “Lord knows I wish I could explain
what I feel when I’m around you.” He pulled back and took a step away from me
while running his fingers through his hair and exhaling deeply. “I’m trying
desperately not to feel anything. You’re my best friend’s sister for crying out
loud. Not just any old friend; but my best friend since birth. What if we
pursue this relationship and things fall apart? Have you thought about that
Jordan?”
    He paused a moment as if needing to
collect himself before choking out the next logical consequence. “Jordan your
whole family…well…you’re the only family I’ve got besides my brother Derek. If
I lost all of you…”
    When his voice cracked on the last
words, my heart ached with the force of an alligator snapping at its prey. I
reached out to grab his hand and felt ashamed for pushing him so hard. The
thought had never crossed my mind until he’d spoken the words. What if, indeed?
JT’s only living relative was his Aunt Mary and she lived thousands of miles
away. He barely knew her. But my family had always been JT’s home away from
home—even before his parents had died—and even more so after they were gone.
Was it selfish of me to want to push him into seeing where a relationship might
take us?
    “But you won’t lose us,” I reassured
him. “We’ve known each other our whole lives. The last four weeks have been
amazing with you. I know what I feel and I don’t think there’s anyone else out
there who’s as wonderful as you are.”
    “You can’t know for sure.” He leaned against
the storage room shelving and stared at a spot above my left shoulder. “You
haven’t even been on a second date with any of the morons you’ve met. What if
you’re just attracted to me because you subconsciously want to fulfill
Grannie’s wishes and compared to all the deadbeats you’ve met, I’m looking
pretty damn good?”
    I knew he was trying to be serious
but I couldn’t help the grin that tugged at the corner of my mouth. “You think
I’m attracted to you just because of Grannie? That’d I’d risk pissing off my
brother and shackling myself to someone to make someone else happy? Well then
you don’t know me very well.”
    “Maybe you have a point,” he conceded
and slowly approached me again. “But I’m not going to be bullied into rushing
into a relationship. The timing isn’t right.”
    “So all those things you said to
Jared earlier about you being unable to commit to a relationship now. That was
meant for me?”
    “Jordan,” he sighed and leaned down
to brush his lips softly against mine. “The pressure is too much. I can’t
support you and give you the attention you deserve over the next year while I’m
finishing college.”
    “You can’t,” I said, raising a brow
to him. “Or you won’t?”
    “I don’t know.”
    I stared into his deep blue eyes and
hesitated at the depth of pain and confusion I saw reflected back at me. There
was some validity in what he’d said to me. But I wasn’t willing to give up on
him. He