head back and forth on the thin, hard pillow in a gesture of despair.
If he only had more strength. Just a little while ago he had had a lot of strength. Old and wiry and with a lot of strength left in him. Strong enough for almost anything at all.
But shiftless, they had said back in Willow Bend.
And there he had the name. He was glad to have it back. He hugged it close against him.
âWillow Bend,â he said, speaking to the darkness.
âYou all right, old timer?â
He could not see the speaker, but he was not frightened. There was nothing to be frightened of. He had his name and he had Willow Bend and he had Limbo and in just a little while heâd have all the rest of it and then heâd be whole again and strong.
âIâm all right,â he said.
âKitty gave you soup. You want some more of it?â
âNo. All I want is to get out of here.â
âYou been pretty sick. Temperature a hundred and one point seven.â
âNot now. I have no fever now.â
âNo. But when you got here.â
âHow come you know about my temperature? You arenât any medic. I can tell by the voice of you that you arenât any medic. In Limbo, there would be no medic.â
âNo medic,â said the unseen speaker. âBut I am a doctor.â
âYouâre lying,â Alden told him. âThere are no human doctors. There isnât any such a thing as doctors any more. All we have is medics.â
âThere are some of us in research.â
âBut Limbo isnât research.â
âAt times,â the voice said, âyou get rather tired of research. Itâs too impersonal and sterile.â
Alden did not reply. He ran his hand, in a cautious rubbing movement, up and down the blanket that had been used to cover him. It was stiff and hard to the touch, but seemed fairly heavy.
He tried to sort out in his mind what the man had told him.
âThere is no one here,â he said, âbut violators. What did you violate? Forget to trim your toe-nails? Short yourself on sleep?â
âIâm not a violator.â
âA volunteer, perhaps.â
âNor a volunteer. It would do no good to volunteer. They would not let you in. Thatâs the point to Limboâthatâs the dirty rotten joke. You ignore the medics, so now the medics ignore you. You go to a place where there arenât any medics and see how well you like it.â
âYou mean that you broke in?â
âYou might call it that.â
âYouâre crazy,â Alden Street declared.
For you didnât break into Limbo. If you were smart at all, you did your level best to stay away from it. you brushed your teeth and bathed and used one of the several kinds of approved mouth washes and you took care that you had your regular check-ups and you saw to it that you had some sort of daily exercise and you watched your diet and you ran as fast as you could leg it to the nearest clinic the first moment you felt ill. Not that you were often ill. The way they kept you checked, the way they made you live, you were very seldom ill.
He heard that flat, metallic voice clanging in his brain again, the disgusted, shocked, accusatory voice of the medic disciplinary corps.
Alden Street, it said, youâre nothing but a dirty slob.
And that, of course, was the worst thing that he could be called. There was no other label that could possibly be worse. It was synonymous with traitor to the cause of the body beautiful and healthy.
âThis place?â he asked. âItâs a hospital?â
âNo,â the doctor said. âThereâs no hospital here. There is nothing here. Just me and the little that I know and the herbs and other woods specifics that Iâm able to command.â
âAnd this Limbo. What kind of Limbo is it?â
âA swamp,â the doctor said. âAn ungodly place, believe me.â
âDeath
J. S. Cooper, Helen Cooper