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it on me. He started to open the bottle, and I sat up, taking his hands in mine, keeping the lid on the damn thing. The moment I touched his hands, I lost. We were kissing again, and I hadn’t meant to. It was as if the more we kissed, the more I wanted to be kissed, like it fed on itself.
    I threw myself back on the bed, hands covering my face. “No!” I knew what it was now: Branwyn’s Tears, Aeval’s Joy, Fergus’s Sweat. It could make a human into a sidhe lover for one night. It could turn even a sidhe into a sexual slave, if that sidhe had no access to other sidhe. No fey, no matter how talented, how powerful, can rival the sidhe, so it’s said. You can forget what the touch is like. You can fight not to dream of glowing flesh and eyes like molten jewels, a sweep of ankle-length hair across your body. But the desire is always there just under the surface, like an alcoholic who can never take another drink for fear that one drink will never be enough to satisfy that thirst.
    I screamed, loud and long and wordless. There was another side effect of Branwyn’s Tears. No glamour can stand against it. Because your concentration can’t stand against it. I felt my glamour leaking away, felt my skin as if my entire body took a deep breath.
    I lowered my hands slowly until I was staring up into the mirror on the ceiling. My eyes glowed like tricolor jewels. The outer edge of my irises was molten gold, within that was a circle of jade green, and last came emerald fire to chase around the pupil. Only the sidhe, or a cat, could have such eyes. My mouth was a mixture of crimsons: the remains of my lipstick, and the scarlet gleam of the lips themselves. My skin was a white so pure, it shimmered, like the most perfect of pearls. Again there was light coming out of my skin, like a candle behind a veil. The red-black of my hair fell around the shining colors like a spill of dark blood. If my hair had been pure black, I’d have looked like Snow White carved from jewels.
    This wasn’t just me without the glamour. It was me when my power was upon me, when magic was in the air.
    â€œMy God, you’re sidhe,” he whispered.
    I turned those glowing eyes to Alistair. I expected fear in his eyes, but there was a kind of soft wonderment. “He said you would come if we were faithful, if we truly believed, and here you are.”
    â€œWho said I’d come?”
    â€œA sidhe princess to feast upon.” He spoke in a voice that held awe, but his hands slid under my dress, fingers curling over the band of my panties. I grabbed his wrist and slapped him with the other hand. Slapped him hard enough to leave a red imprint of my hand on his face. We had all the proof we needed to put him in jail. I didn’t have to play along anymore. You can take the energy of Branwyn’s Tears and turn it from sex to violence, or so they say in the Unseelie Court. I was going to try. I was really going to try.
    If he’d hit me back, it might have worked, but he didn’t. He collapsed his body on top of mine, pinning me to the bed. He was so low on my body that his face was level with mine. There was a moment where I looked into his eyes, and I saw the same stricken need in his eyes that I felt in mine. The Tears cut both ways. You could not use it to seduce without being seduced.
    He made a small sound low in his throat and kissed me. I ate at his mouth, one hand going to the ponytail holder that held his hair back. I jerked it out, spilling his shoulder-length hair around me like a silken curtain. I plunged my hands into his hair, two fistfuls of it, held tight, while I explored his mouth.
    His free hand tried to reach down the dress for my breast, but it was still too tight. He pulled at the cloth, and my body jerked with the force of it as the cloth ripped, and his hand spilled inside my bra.
    The touch of his hand on my breast jerked my head back, freed my mouth from him. I was suddenly