surprised. âWell, all those times I told you that I was going to leave my wife for you.â He sounded slightly indignant. âAll those times I promised you that we would have a life togetherâa little house, a fresh start, a cocker spaniel, be a real family.â
âAll those false promises and false hopes you trotted out to keep me hanging on?â she said.
He visibly bristled. âIâm sorry?â
âOh, donât be so silly, George. Iâm not totally stupid. I always knew that you would never leave Judy for me.â
He looked at her in astonishment. âre ally?â he said. He sounded genuinely amazed.
She laughed. âOf course. Donât sound so surprised. Hopeless, impossible, doomed love is a wonderfully dramatic thingâat least for a while. I was young and it all seemed terribly romantic.â
âSo what happened?â
Callista took a long pull on her drink. âHonestly?â
He nodded.
âI grew up.â
âGood God. How terribly pragmatic of you,â he said.
Callista stroked his hand. âYes, thatâs right. Now eat your pie; youâll feel a lot better.â
âBut Iâve pined for you forâ¦â George said. âIf Iâm honest I have pined for you for the last twenty years.â He looked pained and sounded quite cross now.
âYou silly man,â Callista said kindly, pullingthe knife and fork from his pocket and shaking out his napkin.
âIâve always suspected that Judy knew my heart wasnât altogether in it. All those yearsââ he shook his headââall those dreams wasted.â
Callista topped up her gin with the last of the tonic, and when it was obvious that she didnât plan to comment, George continued, âAnd how about you? How has life been with you?â
Callista smiled. âMe? Oh, Iâm fine. Weâve been doing a production of A Midsummer Nightâs Dream this year and our school has been selected for funding from Europe to improve the drama facilities, which is re ally exciting. Weâve put a bid in for a drama studio andââ
âThat isnât what I meant and you know it,â he said, cutting her short. âDidnât you ever miss me?â It was obvious from the tone he was hoping that she had pined for him just a little.
Callista stared at him. How could she possibly tell him that she hadnât thought about him for years? âYou re ally did love me, didnât you?â she said in a low, even voice.
George nodded.
Callista set her hand down over his,wondering what on earth she could say. âGeorge, I am re ally sorry. If Iâd known I might have been more determined to get you, made more of a fuss, fought a little harder, but I thought that you were just toying with me, that I was just a game. I thought maybeâmaybe it was something you made a habit of. You know, new female teacher, straight out of college. Easy pickings.â
He winced.
Callista sighed. âThen again, if Iâd known how you felt it would have been far more painful for both of us, wouldnât it? After I left Belvedere I went up to North Yorkshire, to a lovely school. I married a solicitor called LaurenceâI was made head of department five years ago. Weâve got two daughters, Emma and Charlotte, theyâre fifteen and seventeen. Weâve got a nice house, a dogâa little summer place in France. Weâre very happy. Iâm very happy.â She paused, seeing the pain on Georgeâs face. âOh, George, I thought that it was just an affair.â
He pursed his lips, quite obviously struggling to keep his emotions under control. âYou were the love of my life, Callista,â he murmured. âI have never forgotten you. Never a day goes past when I donât think about you and how itmight have been if I had been brave enough, strong enough, to walk away from my marriage, from Judy.â