Free Christian (The Beck Brothers Series) by Andria Large Page B

back against Shea, meeting his thrusts and forcing
him to go faster. Shea gasped and shoved Christian back down onto the table,
holding him down by his shoulders.
    “ Fucker,
you ’ re gonna make me come before I
want to, ” he
growled.
    Christian
chuckled; loving that Shea was losing his cool.
    Shea held onto his shoulders as he started slamming into
him, hard and fast. Christian cried out and gripped the edge of the table. Shea
bent over him, wrapping one arm around his chest and the other around his waist,
biting the back of Christian ’ s shoulder,
almost causing Christian to come again. Shea moaned long and low as his thrusts
became more erratic and frantic. Shea shifted slightly and was now unknowingly
hitting Christian ’ s prostate
practically forcing him to come hard and pulse around Shea ’ s
cock.
    “ Holy
fucking shit! ” Shea bit
out as he slammed into Christian twice more before coming with a guttural shout
through gritted teeth.
    They
both sagged onto the table, sweaty and panting. Shea draped over Christian ’ s
back, his forehead resting between his shoulder blades. Christian ’ s
heart felt ready to explode, and he blurted the words he had promised not to
say again until he knew they would be returned.
    “ I
love you, Shea. ”   He breathed, immediately wishing he
could take it back. Shit, he was such an ass.
     
 

 
 
    Shea ’ s
first instinct was to repeat the words back to Christian, to tell the man that he
loved him, too, but he hesitated. Was he in love with Christian? He knew that
his feelings for his best friend have changed, and he knew that he was falling
for him.   But was he completely in
love with him? He wasn ’ t sure, and
he didn ’ t want to
tell Christian he loved him, too, if he wasn ’ t
absolutely certain of how he felt.
    Shea
kissed Christian ’ s back,
between his shoulder blades. “ I...I can ’ t,
not yet, ” he
whispered.
    Christian
pushed up, forcing Shea to back up. They both grunted as their bodies separated.
    “ It ’ s
fine, Shea. I didn ’ t expect to
hear it back, ” Christian
replied, his voice void of emotion.
    Christian
gathered up his clothes and headed out of the kitchen.
    “ Where
are you going? ” Shea
called after him.
    “ I
need a shower, ” he
muttered in response and ran up the stairs.
    Shea
heard the bathroom door slam shut. He closed his eyes and hung his head.  
    “ Fuck, ” Shea bit out and scrubbed a hand over his short hair.
    Shea
pulled his jeans back on and headed upstairs. He went to open the bathroom door
but it was locked for the first time ever. Motherfuckinggoddammit! They just had mind-blowing sex and now it was ruined because of three little
words.
    “ Chris?
Hey, are you alright? ” Shea asked
after knocking a couple of times.
    “ Fine, ” Christian croaked.
    Shea
sighed and dropped his forehead to the door. “ Christian,
please, let me in. ”
    “ No, ” Christian said then coughed hard.
    Oh fuck me! Christian
was in the bathroom having a panic attack and throwing up.
    “ Christian... ” Shea pleaded. He hated that he was upset and suffering.
    “ Please
Shea...just let me...be alone... ” Christian said between coughing and gagging.
    “ Dammit,
Chris. I can ’ t just
leave you when you ’ re like
this. You have to know that I do love you, and I am falling for you. I just don ’ t
want to say something that means so much to you unless I ’ m
absolutely certain that it is how I feel.   But you have to know how much I care about you, Christian, otherwise we
wouldn ’ t be
together, and we most definitely would not have just had sex. ”
    “ I
know you care about me, Shea. I just feel like a complete idiot for blurting
that out like I did. I set myself up to be let down. I know you ’ re
not in love with me, and I shouldn ’ t
have put you in that position, ” Christian
said, his voice muffled by the door between them.
    “ Can
you please open the door?   I hate
not seeing your face while we