lying. You didnât do anything wrong. Itâs just that John used to take us out to dinner a lot, even when we were drowning in debt. He hid the truth about our finances and pretended everything was fine until it was too late.â
He was quiet for a moment. âI donât like being compared to your husband.â
Leah cringed, thrusting her hands in her hair. âIâm not saying this right. I think I connected to the two situations in my mind, and judged you unfairly based on his mistakes. Does that make sense?â
He gave her an assessing look. âYes.â
âIâm sorry if I offended you. I guess I haveâ¦trust issues.â
âI understand.â
âDo you?â
âOf course. You think I donât have issues, after the childhood I had? You trigger some of my old wounds, too.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âWell, the fact that you hold yourself at a distance kind of messes with my head. Every time I get close, you back away. On the one hand, youâre sexy and mysterious, and Iâm a normal guy who likes the chase. But deep down Iâm still that scrawny foster kid who felt abandoned and unwanted.â
Heat rose to her cheeks and tears filled her eyes. She looked away, embarrassed by the way his words affected her. Heâd touched her on so many levels.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asked, cupping her face.
She closed her eyes, letting the tears fall. His openness was like a balm to her soul. John had never shared his emotions with her. âIâm sorry I made you feel bad.â
âYouâre not responsible for my upbringing, Leah.â
âThank you for telling me about it.â
He brushed moisture from her cheek. âThank you for listening.â
She felt herself drifting toward him and paused. It wasnât fair to keep leading him on, but he was so hard to resist. âWhy donât you have a girlfriend?â she asked, moving back a few inches and reaching for her drink.
He tore his gaze from her mouth. âI havenât dated anyone in a while.â
âHow come?â
âMy last girlfriend and I broke up right after my sister died.â
âOh,â Leah breathed, putting her hand on her chest. âThatâs terrible.â
âYeah.â His expression was contemplative. âI think it was more my fault that hers.â
âWhy?â
âTalking about my childhood seemed to make her uncomfortable, so I didnât bring it up. She had a great family and couldnât really relate. But I liked her, and we got serious fast. She mentioned wanting kids.â
âDid you?â
âYes, but I had serious reservations about it.â
âMost thoughtful people do.â
âMine are different than most.â
âWhy is that?â
âWell, I like kids, obviously, and I think Iâd enjoy being a parent. But I donât know who my father is.â
âYour mom never told you?â
âNo. There were probably a number of possibilities.â
She rested her head on his shoulder, her heart breaking for him. âThat doesnât mean you wouldnât be a great dad.â
âTrue, but I donât know what genes Iâd be passing on, or even who Iâm related to.â
âCan you get your DNA checked?â
âYeah. I was considering it when Brenda got in the car accident.â He rubbed a hand over his mouth, as if disturbed by the memory. âIâd made a mistake in downplaying my past. Cassie knew I didnât have a father, but she wasnât clear on the details. When she met my mother at the funeral, she was horrified.â
Leah smoothed her palm across his back, comforting him.
âI told her the ugly truth about my childhood andshe stopped talking about kids. It was over pretty soon after that.â
Her loss, she thought. âYou were right to be honest with her.â
âI canât blame her for
Christine Zolendz, Frankie Sutton, Okaycreations