headache,â Ramchandra said.
Goma went to the kitchen to prepare the morning meal.
Ashok arrived soon afterward and sat down with Ramchandra. âSo, are you still tutoring Malati?â he asked.
âYes.â
âHas she improved any?â
âNo.â
âDo you think sheâll pass the S.L.C.?â
âHow do I know, Ashok? I donât guarantee passing or failing.â
âBut you have such a good reputation. Itâd be a shame if she failed.â
âWhy donât you focus on your own exam? You think itâs guaranteed that youâll pass?â
Ashok grinned. âSir, what do you think? Donât you think I will?â
âMere passing is not enough. You need to get good grades.â
âI need to pass only because my father says so. He wants me to go to college before I take over the business.â
âNot everyone has that luxury.â
âSir, why donât you start a business? I could help you. This teaching will get you nowhere. But you could be rich in a short time.â
âBecoming rich is not my ambition,â Ramchandra said.
After Ashok left, Goma and Ramchandra ate in the kitchen. Ramchandra could eat only half of his serving. He pushed the plate aside and said, âSave this for me. Iâll have it for dinner.â
âBut youâll have no energy during the day.â
âI just donât feel like eating.â He washed his hands and mouth, got dressed, and headed for school.
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He thought of Malati all dayâwhile he taught, while he took his tea break, while he rushed a student, whoâd cut his finger when playing, to Bandana Miss, while he watched her take out a first-aid kit and apply iodine and a bandage to the boyâs hand. He thought of Malati as he walked home, the late afternoon traffic humming around him. He thought of her when, in Ratnapark, he saw girls her age from Padma Kanya College, wearing their saffron saris, walking along, laughter etched around their lips. He thought of her when he saw a beggar woman holding a baby in her lap, her hand stretched out for the coins people might throw in her direction.
And he thought of Goma, and the moment his mother had first shown him Gomaâs picture. He remembered feeling a faint tremor of excitement. She was a bit on the chubby side, but, with her large eyes, she seemed to be someone he could cuddle up to under a blanket on cold nights, someone whose belly he could caress, someone he could hold hands with and eat fritters from roadside stalls. In old age, after their children had quarreled with them and produced their own families, theyâd help each other with their canes, up the stairs, on the streets. If she became ill, heâd go mad, and rush to fetch the best doctors in town. All these fantasies had converged upon him right in that instant when he saw her picture.
Heâd said yes to his mother, and within a few months, he and Goma were married. The wedding was the first time Ramchandra got the sense that the Pandeys were not happy with the union. Ramchandra had expected a grand welcome at Pandey Palace when members of the wedding entourage arrived on that rainy afternoon, but the reception consisted of half-smiles, even stares. The wedding pyre was small, with only one priest, and the buffet table the guests flocked to after the ceremony had few dishes. Ramchandra did receive a large gold wedding ring from his in-laws, but when the brideâs parents had to wash the feet of their son-in-law, a ritual symbolizing the godlike stature of a son-in-law, Mr. Pandey announced that it was an old ritual, one he did not want to perform. Mrs. Pandey was silent, but the distaste both of them felt for him was all over their faces. Some of Ramchandraâs relatives complained, saying that not washing oneâs son-in-lawâs feet amounted to gross disrespect. A small argument broke out, and Ramchandra, worried about the way the