Free Spark (Black Legion MC Book 1) by Kathryn Thomas Page B

but his breath hit her lips. She sighed at the feel of the warmth surrounding her, and Jax clasped her closer. “I mean are you back with me?”
     
    Lena studied his face and smiled at the sweetness poking through his stare. He started to turn her to her side when she leapt for the water and captured some of the stream in her hands. Pouring it over her head, she swore she saw his mask falling away, and as he savored the shower and smiled into her eyes, the boy she had known best and loved more was right there under her eyes.
     
    “I never wanted to leave you,” she said. “I wanted you then. And I want you now.” She hugged him hard and started to kiss his neck.
     
    Jax’s body mirrored her movements, and he tightened under her arms. “Is this okay?” he asked, his eyes suddenly wide as he relinquished his hold.
     
    “Jax, why---?”
     
    “Because if it’s too much,” he murmured. “If it hurts you in any way, then I don’t want to.”
     
    “Stop.” Pressing her finger to his lips, she kissed his hair and rested her head to his neck as his hands reached the hem of the skirt. Still he hesitated, and Lena had to bring her mouth to his in protest. Kissing him quickly, she felt his smile under her lips, and she placed her hand on his chest. “It won’t hurt at all if it’s you,” she promised. “You, Jax…”
     
    Craving his kiss, she moved to his lap and sighed at the feel of his mouth on hers. She started to dive deeper when he pushed back and caressed her hair. “I missed you so much,” he said. “And I didn’t understand…”
     
    “I wanted you to be the first,” Lena confessed. “My first.” Always in her dreams there was a chance of that, of hiding the darkness away so that she could forget and move past it. “But I’m damaged goods now.” She turned her head away as she confessed, but Jax’s hand refused to let her leave his stare, and he sighed into her cheek.
     
    “Not to me,” he said. “Never to me.”
     
    Lena’s heart filled with hope as he lowered her body to the ground and hovered over her, his hand sweet and light against her hair as he spoke softly. “What that was, what he did to you, that was a crime against everything.”
     
    “Was it?” she asked.
     
    “Lena…” Jax’s kiss swirled against her mouth, and she started to grab his neck when he pushed back. Her heart caught in her throat at the sight of his eyes brimming with tears, and Jax lay at her side, his head pillowed in her chest as he sighed. “I can give it back to you,” he said. “That first taste”
     
    Could he? Could he really do that and more? The idea of her soul wiped clean of the sin caused heart to flutter in her chest, and she started to kiss him again when the recollection of the darkest night slammed into her soul.
     
    “You can’t do that,” she whimpered. “There’s no way that---”
     
    “Give me a chance, Lena,” he purred. “It can be like it was, like it should have been.”
     
    Desperate to see if he could work his magic one more time, hoping that he would make good on his word, Lena rested against the grass and let his hands linger up his legs. His touch was light against her thighs, and she shuddered at the feel of his hand dotting her skin. Her eyes rolled back in her head, and she turned to the smell of the grass as Jax reached up her sides. His hand stopped short of her breasts, and she met his gaze again and smiled up as she helped his fingers towards the desired destination.
     
    “Then please show me,” she begged. “Make me forget, Jax. Make me know something else.”
     
    “Something better?” he asked.
     
    “It would be that with you. Please.”
     
    Expecting him to claim her now beside the creek, Jax just stroked her cheeks, his fingers lost in her golden locks as he leaned towards her face and met her mouth. “You sure it’s what you want?” he asked.
     
    “It’s what I need. What I’ve needed for so long. I’m here, Jax. Help me.