expression shifts to concern. âSarah,â she repeats quietly.
âSheâs at Susanâs. Sheâs fine. Do you want me to go get her? To bring her. Do you want to see her?â
âNo,â she says.
âRight.â
I sit for a minute or so and wonder if she actually wants
me
here. Itâs not at all clear. âIs Sarah OK at Susanâs? Are you happy with that?â I finally ask.
âSusanâs,â Jenny says, visibly struggling to keep her eyes open. âYes.â
âI think I should just let you sleep,â I say. âIâll come back this evening.â
I lean in to kiss her forehead, and she says, âTom.â
At first I think sheâs confused, and answer,
âMark
. Yes?â
Jenny swallows and says again, âTom?â
âYou want me to call Tom?â
She blinks slowly, so I force a smile and nod slowly. âOf course,â I say.
âThanks,â she says, her eyes already closing.
I walk all the way back to town battling with myself to not feel peeved that she wants Tom rather than myself.
âMaybe Tom should come and sort everything out,â
I think, meanly. But as I walk, I manage to calm myself down. Jenny never had a lot of friends, and the fact that Tom was the only person our age at her mumâs funeral speaks reams.
In town, I buy more crumpets and some strong cheddar, and then reluctantly head back to the close. Iâm not really looking forward to speaking to Susan again, and Iâm certainly in no hurry to call Tom.
The entire walk ends up taking well over an hour but the exercise clears my head.
Feeling sweaty but calmer, I head straight to the neighbourâs house.
âHello,â she says in a reassuringly neutral tone of voice. âHave you been? Have you seen her?â
I nod. âYes. Is Sarah ⦠?â I glance behind her.
âTheyâre playing out back,â she says.
âGood. Sheâs in a pretty bad way,â I tell her. âI just came from there. She can barely answer, âyesâ or âno.ââ
âAnd do they know what it is yet?â
âNo. Maybe later. Theyâre doing some scans or something this afternoon. Is Sarah OK with you? For the moment?â
âSure,â Susan says. âBut will Jenny be back tonight? Because I canât look after her tomorrow. Weâre off to Sutton.â
âSutton?â
âYeah, my sisterâs place. I tried to call the hospital, but they wouldnât put me through.â
âNo, well, as I say ⦠sheâs pretty ill.â
âSo if sheâs not back by tomorrow, well, weâll have to think of something else.â
âIâll have to take her,â I say. âBut thatâs OK.â
âShe seems to remember you at least,â Susan says, a shadow slipping across her features.
âIâve known Jenny for twenty years,â I tell her. âWe even dated once,â I add, hoping that this hint of heterosexuality will reassure her.
âRight,â Susan says in a tone of voice which indicates that my strategy probably hasnât worked. âWell anyway, letâs just hope sheâs out by then, eh?â
âYes,â I agree. âLetâs hope for that. But otherwise, Sarah will be fine. Really.â
Susan nods. âOK,â she says, grudgingly. âFair enough.â
As I open the front door to Jennyâs house, I think, with some relief, that I donât have Tomâs number anymore. But thatâs too selfish. I can, of course, use directory enquiries. Or I could, if I knew Tomâscurrent address, or even the number for directory enquiries.
On the hall table, though, is Jennyâs Nokia. I should have taken it to her, of course. In the recent-call list, I find an entry entitled,
TOM - MOB
.
I sink to the bottom stair, groan and hit the âcallâ button.
Tom speaks before I can say a word,