Free The Alabaster Staff by Edward Bolme Page A

streets of Messemprar for the remaining daylight hours. Her partially eaten pear sat in her left hand unnoticed, almost forgotten, its raw surfaces slowly turning brown. Her right hand clutched her left biceps just opposite the throbbing brand. She couldn’t see the burn well and dared not touch it, but the unrelenting sensation of heat, the blisters that surrounded the area, and the bitter odor all told her she’d been injured fairly seriously. Tears of fear, rage, shame, and pain quivered at the corners of her eyes, but she refused to let them fall. She was an Untheri; she would persevere. Somehow she would prosper just as her nation had persevered and occasionally prospered under the tyranny of the god-king Gilgeam.
    Even worse than the pain of the burn were the knot in her stomach, and the anguish, nausea, and hopelessness it brought to her. She wanted to curl up but wouldn’t. She needed to eat but couldn’t.All the darkest times of her childhood were falling back in upon her soul, wiping away what self-respect she’d had, like a thunderhead blotting out a young spring sky. What little hope she had was offered by a den of thieves … hardly the most auspicious bearers of gifts.
    Her pride urged her to find a way not to let the ugly wall-walking sorceress get the better of her (though, in fact, she already had), but without knowing the guild’s reach she could find no sure solution. She’d been placed into a position in which she had no choice. She’d always told herself before that there was hope, yet she could see none left.
    She tried not to think about the fact that she could have chosen death instead. She failed, of course, and when she thought about it she tried to tell herself that it wasn’t fair that she should die for being a murderer’s scapegoat.
    None of it stuck. The guilt of her capitulation had torn the scab off of her memories—the days of her youth that she hated—and the pain and self-recrimination welled up from the wound once again. She wondered whether, even without the threat of arrest, she would have done their bidding just to earn a good meal, a dry bed, a bit of security and a hope of belonging … somewhere.
    The salt in her wound was that someone else would profit from her theft, from her abandonment of her principles. Profit financially, of course, but it was also clear that the sorceress enjoyed exerting power over people like Kehrsyn. She was probably gloating about how she’d directed Kehrsyn like a trained dog.
    Kehrsyn tried to focus her turbulent emotions and turn them against the sorceress. If she could, it would give her motivation and drive, perhaps even help her to figure out some way to get back at that false-friendly wench with the supercilious smirk.
    But, the guilty portions of her mind said, does a thieving little wretch like me deserve vengeance?
    A horn blew somewhere in town, followed by another, and others. The sound snapped Kehrsyn’s mind back to the present. The city guard was sounding the curfew. Soon pairs, trios, and full whips of constables would sweep the streets, ensuring that the refugees were ejected from the city before the gates closed. During a war, only those who owned homes or paid rent were allowed to remain within Messemprar’s walls after nightfall. With the Mulhorandi army looming to the south, those who had space to let, even a spare corner of a common room, were making mintweight from those fearful enough to pay for it.
    Kehrsyn counted her coins. It didn’t take long. One silver. One copper left over from the day before.
    Even if she found someone with space to let, it was not nearly enough. She put them back into her bag, along with her pear.
    She sighed. Without a tent, or even any friendly faces among the refugees, she didn’t relish the thought of spending the night outside. Not in this weather. Even if she could find that kid Jaldi, well, he didn’t look any better off than she was.
    She’d evaded the city guard before, and