bedchamberâs dark air, seeping up like a yearning can. Havenât seen Rebecca Laslie for years. Waiting on Mister Sam, I long for she. Long to know if she dead or alive. How a mama can sever a daughter from she?
Something like Mamaâs face â if thatâs what she is â stares back from old stone rainwater jar when I go to fill Mister Samâs jug: my hair curls tied up in a ragged red scarf and, sharp as moon-shadows black on water, deep pits like Pa carved under Mama Laslieâs eyes for crying and half drinking sheself to death. Rebecca Laslie lives. I swear sheâs not dead.
I have to take jugâs weight, raise rim to Mister Samâs lips. Mister Sam tastes cool water, head jerking up down, up down, with each tiny sip. Eyes uplifting to mine, weakly he slides into pillows again.
Sounds I hardly know trickle into my ear, pulling my head round. Sounds like Mary Ann laughing, but how laughter can be mournful? Empty? Scared? Hall clock strikes eight, calling me for Doctor Demarâs table laying. Why hall clock chimes so lonely sad?
Dancing, Mary Ann comes first into great-house dining-room. Stripes purple as lips still stand up vivid on she face. Worming a path from forehead to chin are bold lines of skin Charlesâ whip raised. But blue bruises faded long time past.
Cutlery in my hand, I pause from table laying. May, Jo, Friday, follow Mary Ann. Friday wears a nice green shirt, first time I seen him dress bright and crisp. But I feel badness in all this busha-house party mood.
âPa treat Friday to it,â Mary Annâs singing, throwing she head round.
âWhy yu tek so lang lang coming?â I ask Mary Ann. âYu tink me work fe yu?â
âIt Fridayâs birthday,â she replies.
âMary Ann, Mister Sam say donât ansa back,â May says mockingly.
Paâs cracked feet pad like leather on yacca floor. Same Pa. Same mama. Sibyl and me both sister sameway. Why sameway Pa donât treat we? Shame! Me cyaan change me red skin colour. Cyaan kill it .
Mary Annâs face aglow with wickedness. A thin brown hand stretches out, making for cutlery by Doctor Demarâs plate. She all curiosity, Mary Ann. I wonder if she aware of Doctor Demarâs gaze. But sparkling silverâs within she reach. She dares to touch one fork, pretty plate.
Looking like Paâs about to attack, jaw hard-grinding roast coffee beans, him eyes sad, mean; Paâs lean shoulders set angrily. Lizards scuttle into hiding.
I cuss pickney, âNo, outta de weh.â Running around all with eyes of different colours â Fridayâs green, Joâs blue-brown, Mayâs grey â pickney scatter onto dark verandah, bare backs half-black as my own daughterâs.
Brooding, sucking him teeth, Pa gazes at Mary Ann. She head bobs beneath table-top, eyes peering up.
âMary Ann, clear de hall table wen Doctor Demar rum finish,â Iâm saying to she.
Pa, deciding something, teases dirt from under fingernails, flicks it towards sea. Whatâs pastâs more real to him than whatâs present. Paâs arm skates Mary Ann. âCho! Cease an sekkle,â he yelling.
Ducking, Mary Ann squeals, âMe aint done noting!â
Striding onto verandah Paâs foot scuffs a centipede, leaving a scaly smudge, oozing slightly.
Centipedeâs skewered on a splinter, scaly patterns delicate like lace. Mary Ann, in a trance, cages it between toes, hurting it for pleasure.
Turning, Pa says, âDe saltin fish yu mek dis mornin have a bad flavour.â He cut him eye at me. âWot mek yu not tek back yu baby fadda, Charles, huh?â
âMe bring Mary Ann into dis place,â I say. âMe tek care of she.â
Mary Annâs mashing a withered claw between verandah planks, a twisting body. I know of all Paâs ways to bring Mary Ann pain.
âGit out, Mary Ann,â I shout. âGit to kitchen block, do yu chores.