she saw the boyâs arm held up to acknowledge the cheers of the crowd, she couldnât catch even a glimpse of his face. It was completely hidden by the gigantic feathery plumes on the helmet that he wore.
The film ended with a close-up of the king looking stern and resolute but rather tired, while the voice of the commentator said: âTo the brave ruler who defied Hitlerâs bullying, we, the people of Great Britain, send our greetings. Well done, Bergania!â
Then came the film they had come to see.
Iâll Always Be Yours was not a good film. In fact, it was a perfectly awful film.
Gloria Grantley played a poor girl who went to work in a department store where she caught the eye of a handsome millionaire. She fell in love with the millionaire and he promised to marry her but it turned out he was married already, so Gloria jumped off a bridge and everyone thought she had drowned and the millionaire felt terribly guilty. But it turned out that she hadnât, and she became a nun and looked after little children in a convent and taught them to sing. It ended with her on her deathbed looking up to heaven and saying the millionaireâs name (which was Lionel) in a throbbing voice before she closed her eyes forever.
Tally was glad it was over; she couldnât wait to get into the fresh air, but although people were streaming out of the cinema, Julia hadnât moved. She was sitting with her shoulders hunched and her hands over her face.
âWhat is it, Julia? Whatâs the matter? It ended all rightâsheâs perfectly happy with God. Itâs what she wanted.â
Julia shook her head. She was cryingânot at all in the way that Gloria Grantley had cried, with glycerine tears rolling down her perfectly made-up cheeks, but hopelessly, her face scrunched up, her shoulders heaving. She had no handkerchief and Tally didnât have one to give her; the children in Magdaâs house did not come easily by handkerchiefs.
âCome on,â Tally urged her friend. âLetâs go outside.â
She took Juliaâs arm and led her across the square and down some stone steps to the towpath along the river. There was a bench looking over the water and they sat down on it side by side.
âIf you feel like telling me whatâs the matter, I wouldnât tell anyone. It isnât because she didnât get Lionel, is it? Itâs something else.â
Julia went on sniffing and gulping. Then she lifted her head and said, âI miss her so much!â
Tally stared at her. âWho? Who do you miss so much?â And then: âWhat is it about Gloria Grantley that youââ
âSheâs my mother.â Juliaâs voice was flat and exhausted. She sat bent up like an old woman.
âYour mother? â It seemed incredible, but now that Tally looked out for it she could see a likeness . . . something about the set of Juliaâs mouth and her eyes.
âNo one knows except Daley and Matteo, so you mustnât tell.â
âI wonât say anything. But if sheâs your mother . . . you mean you miss her during term time? I miss my father butââ
âNo. I miss her all the time; I donât see her even on the holidays. Well, hardly everâjust in secret places for a very short time. Iâm too old, you see. Iâm nearly thirteen, and it wouldnât do for her to have a daughter my age. Sheâs supposed to be twenty-five, so I have to be kept out of the way, but I just want to be able to be with her. I love her so much.â
Tally knew what she should have done nextâsat quietly beside Julia and let her talkâbut she couldnât. She got to her feet and collected the largest stones she could find and hurled them one by one into the river. Except that in her mind it wasnât stones she was throwing, it was Gloria Grantley she was sending into the swirling, icy water. Gloria with her pout and her bosom